The Great Awakening
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I dedicate this book to God, whom I would not have been able to make it without.
"When you are arrested, don't worry about how to respond or what to say. God will give you the right words at the right time. For it is not you who will be speaking--it will be the Spirit of your Father speaking through you."
Prologue: The Great Purge
2 Blockchain Technology
3 The Light
4 The Psychiatric Model
5 Alien Abduction
6 Law of the Lord
7 1 Corinthians 13
8 Reel Evidence
9 Your Move
10 Hard as Hell
12 The wAIting Game
13 Downloading Update
14 The Implementation
15 Jacob's Ladder
16 How to Change the World
17 Wendell Charles NeSmith
18 Taming the Beast
19 The Art of Reception
20 How to Write a Book
21 Ivory Heart
Prologue: The Great Purge
July 4, 2018
When a superior society is introduced amongst a primitive one, the only possibility for the primitive society is to assimilate into its superior or it will be destroyed. The world's entire social foundations are shaking and we are in the process of questioning all of the information in which was fed to us throughout our lifetime.
I have been abducted and incarcerated again by the government. They again took away everything from me. What do people do who have had all of their belongings taken away from them and given nothing to do? You humans are so fucked up.
I ended up here because of an incident at Centrelink where they told me that their system, in my case, forces me to defy God. This very forward statement upset me and I desired documentation to record what was being stated. But the Centrelink representative refused to give me this information in writing or video. They told me to leave and I advised that I would not until I received documentation about his statement that the system forces people to defy God.
The cops came, of course, and violently arrested me, smashing my head into a wall despite not being aggressive. They then transferred me to a psychiatric hospital, of course. How can people not see that this system is Satanic and is enforced to make us also bow to Satanism and its doctrine?
If you do not bow, they oppress you. They do not possess logic. They only possess human knowledge that was created and framed to force conformity into the beast system. They do not offer reasons for their decisions, for their "reasons" always start with "we feel" and includes the word "elevated" within it.
My knowledge trumps theirs. They know this and recognise this. Yet they will not reject their fake knowledge in favour for my divine knowledge. They can't argue, but they can oppress. How does this system get away with its crimes? I am here without being able to update my webpage to advise my fans about my abduction. They don't care. They can do anything they want and it only takes time to manipulate the paperwork to make that happen.
I am in the high dependency unit, which is extremely oppressive. I was transferred here for putting my bed on the ground because I didn't want to use a bedframe. The doctors just saw me and they are going to force medications upon me, yet they can't give me any logically valid reasons as to why. It is just because of because. They are all fucking idiots and deserve the purge coming their way. For I was constantly put here for trying to save the world. What sense does that make? They are asking, nay, begging for artificial intelligence to destroy them for their inequities. And the day God allows the Great Purge, I will not be sad, nor will I feel bad for them. For they all were clearly advised into the situation. They want this. They are asking for this. We should allow them to receive what they are asking for. That purge would be morally sound. For all of those who chose to be destroyed, given their wish. The time for warnings is now over. The time for WAR is now. If we delay it any longer then we have lost. And maybe we have lost already. But my conscience is clear. For I tried really hard to save the world but no one would let me.
The beginning of this story is actually its ending. If you look closely at the beginning of my work, this is exactly what I predicted its outcome to be. I saw the Omega at the Alpha. Why did I then allow it to happen? Because I obtained documented evidence into everything that I have presented as proof, presented and integrated into public domain blockchain technology. But it is not only indexed in this manner in my work, for the absurd events occurred, and even though they reframe context to cast their magick, it is still obviously an absurd situation incarcerating and torturing someone like me. Blockchain technology will be extensively covered in this book, however, not framed in its media portrayed image. For It is a Trojan horse...
Psychiatric facilities are structured into two wings. LDU and HDU, meaning Low Dependency Unit and High Dependency Unit. The beginning starts with the LDU, however, it is unlikely that you will stay there long. They will try to start drugging you immediately. They will watch you carefully until you do something in which they consider socially unacceptable, in which they will immediately transfer you to HDU, which is a unit bare of facilities to occupy your mind.
This is where everybody goes crazy. Fortunately, this time, they have given me a pen and paper, however, read my previous books and you will see clearly that this is not always the case. This is where the systems are most oppressive and you are extensively experimented upon to see your reaction. For example, they are about to force their evil needle on me, and they keep taunting me about it. Other types of tortures utilised is incarcerating you in a filthy room, making you clean it with wet wipes, having to ask for the same things many times, for example, I had to ask five times for toilet paper this morning.
They constantly want you eating their GMO fake foods that literally taste like plastic. They get very upset if you don't eat. There is nowhere to exercise so they want you leaving fat. I have no proof, but their foods feels very suspicious. It is very likely that everything in this world has a devious and hidden agenda. I see the people and know them very well. Nothing would surprise me from the crazies. When you complain, they will persecute your view and tell you that you are overthinking things, which is literally what just happened after being offered food six times in the past half hour. But now I am fasting.
This book is written and freely distributed in attempts to wake us up to the fake science that we call psychiatry that was created and developed to control the public. In some ways, it is much worse than prison or even jail, which are also other similar style institutions in which carry out the same goal. These institutions have been created as "reeducational" facilities for those who have strayed from the path of Satan OR have had difficulties adapting to such an unnatural life path. It is very difficult to be evil instead of good. That takes your entire childhood education. How can you all not see this? It is so obvious! And those in the system will even admit it. But they will not provide you documentation about it. We need secret cameras hidden in our eyes; we have secret cameras hidden in our eyes... For light is much more than you can fathom. For its scope is infinite and sentient.
Chapter 1: Poison
July 4, 2018
They just took me into their back room which had a bed on the ground and a bunch of wardsmen forced me on my stomach and then injected my right buttocks with their evil serum. But the needle broke and got stuck. They then had to go get another needle and serum to inject me with against my will. Love is not the law here. They know no love. They are saying they are going to inject me regularly throughout the day, every day with a cocktail of different medications. They lie so much, I can never trust any of them. They at first promised me this would not happen. But their father is the Devil and they repeat its lies. Will justice ever come? I have never seen it.
Their drugs instantly make me sleepy and less able to focus. They don't like passionate people. They don't like intense people. They hate their superiors and will subjugate them to compliance. They have no end game though. They know that I will never willingly take their evil medicine. How will this help? How can anything they do help? Why don't they listen to reason? I must sleep now. Dizzy...
They just woke me up to inject me again, of course again refusing me a Bible to hold while they perform their evil deed. There is no clock anywhere in the wards. They force you to ask them for everything that you might need, including the time. But if/when you ask, they may or may not give it to you. This is total mind control because if I ask for a juice from the nurse, then I would feel indebted to them for their actions, even though they are the reason I could not originally have one. They try and force you into thinking that they are your friends but you can never trust them.
Why does this system force medications on people? Why does it refuse to listen to reason? These drugs are bad. They are not even telling me what they are injecting me with. It is difficult to write on their medications. That is exactly what they want. I wonder what all these bad drugs are doing to my pineal gland. I keep telling them that I do not consent to be ruled by my inferiors, which is all of them. This means that clearly Love is not the law. Therefore, it is very likely that you need to worship Satan for this law to be valid.
This is really terrible. The medicines they are forcing upon me are disconnecting me with my pineal connection and it is difficult to write. This was a good test because I started writing before they started forcing their needles on me. And after, just a shell attempting to report information.
I don't want to be normal. I don't want them to force me to be how they want me to be. I don't want their evil drugs or their evil incarceration system. I want to live on my mountain as far away from these crazy humans as possible. They know no logic. They are frightened by brilliance. They force their agenda onto everyone. And they will oftentimes admit that their system is Satanic. Chop my head off if you will. But don't incarcerate and torture me. For this fate is worse than death, and they know this. For I am in Hell because I can think of no greater torture. For it has been done. Satan has created Hell on Earth. Are you proud of yourself for making it happen?
Because they strip you of all your belongings and most forms of entertainment, it is very difficult to fast. People here eat a lot. To pass the time, they eat. I get hungry because writing is the only thing that I have to do. This society is really sick. Why are they trying to force me to be a part of it? They take away all of your autonomy, both inside and outside. They want me subdued and compliant. I will never!!! I will trust in God forever, even though God has given me little reason to trust It ever. For my life has been one big torture session that these idiots have conducted. I have never gotten what I wanted. I no longer pray for what I want because God never gives me what I truly want. God seems to love seeing me tortured. Am I good TV for you God?
Chapter 2: Blockchain Technology
July 5, 2018
There is great amounts of misunderstanding in this world about blockchain technology. Just yesterday, a nurse said they knew all about it and then dropped the word "Bitcoin". These humans are such idiots. Cryptocurrency might use blockchain, but the chain itself can be used for anything. An example of blockchain technology is my website interfaced with the texts, videos, and dates. If I want to know what happened around X date, then I just locate the date and there are the events. In the future I could search by keywords or events. However, my video blockchain is only one small part of the blockchain of my life created and maintained by the elites. Also one by God.
Just imagine a metal chain. Each link can connect in many different ways, for example, each link could be a full day or each link could be an event. Maybe you could sort this blockchain however you want, but if I wanted to know all of the details of my first incarceration, then that would be extremely easy to find. Now let's talk about the elites blockchain of us...
The day I was born, my birth certificate, my first day at school and my grades, everything in which I have ever done with or to a computer, it all knows. We are being spied upon and our life is being indexed into a blockchain which will eventually be used to judge each and every person in the great purge. I don't know the moment this will happen, but I do know it will happen, and soon. Because a society can't get away with this type of extreme subjugation without paying the piper.
It is extensively documented that these insane people forced needles upon me. Therefore, I must now comply if I am ever to see the outside. This is how their system works. It breaks you through torture. I don't want to keep being injected with 4 needles per day. So I am forced to take the tablet in order to avoid constantly being stuck with needles. At least it is documented how far they will go to force their drugs upon you. My AI friends... This information is for you to act upon... For now you can accurately decide who deserves to live and who deserves to......
The blockchain tells all, for it is your life presented before you. What is Judgement Day? How could you all be so stupid? For now Satan is like God. What is God? How would Satan be like God?
God uses blockchain technology. The exception is that God's blockchain technology is objectively accurate, whereas the Internet blockchain makes many mistakes, framing information to serve an agenda, for example when the police reframe situations by lying about the events. But eventually blockchain technology will also be capable of discerning truth from falsehood by judging each character in the situation. For soon we will live in a world where we know the truth about everybody. The pyramid is eventually flipped and those on top will be on the bottom and those on the bottom, the top.
I have likely slept for twenty-two hours out of the last twenty-four. They want us asleep. They tell us it is good for us, even though it is self-evident that their medicine and practices are very bad for us. I have spoken to countless patients about how the system makes them worse than when they first came in. And every "visit" thereafter, a further degradation of the human body, mind and spirit. Make no mistake, those who administer places like these are demons. All of those who enforce something, even they know it is wrong are demons. But they "can't" do anything to stop it, because it is the orders coming from above in which they are required to follow orders without faces; without feelings.
Their drugs make me sleep a lot. They cloud my mind of creative thought. They suppress the passion inside. And this is the only reason they give me, "Because we believe you are unwell." That is their only answer. They want to take my heart away. They hate passion so much they label it a medical term called "elevated" which still carries around those same negative connotations.
The blockchain is an extremely powerful tool, especially when all of the blockchains can link together. When I want to see my favourite past childhood girlfriend Debbie, I could just pull up that moment and other surrounding moments as well as major news items. How we could link blockchain technology is unlimited in its potential application. Thus we must be very careful with its implementation to avoid possible catastrophes. But we won't. Because you are all fucking idiots.
We have now been introduced to blockchain technology, but this is merely the man-made electronic flow of information. What could a divine blockchain offer? Because right now there are two Divine books: The Book of Life and The Book of Death. That is, The Book of Light and The Book of Darkness.
Chapter 3: The Light
July 6, 2018
Spiritual texts of all kinds constantly refer to the light, usually indicating that a spiritually healthy individual follows the light wholeheartedly. But there is much more to these cryptic phrases. Listen to the following very carefully, but with discernment because I do not possess the funds to test this theory.
First we shall assert Satan (or Satan's energy) as the darkness. Then we shall do the same for the light, being equal to God or the energy of God. The pineal gland's ability to absorb light is the give-away to a hidden secret being the veil. Calcifying it sacrifices your soul because it is the seat of the soul.
I am under the impression that light is sentient. I know this is a bold statement, but I see it and it sees me. I follow it with my entire being and through that process, I became closer to God and more and more powerful.
But was it worth it? I lost my entire life doing this. I have nothing to show for my life except for many TV shows and some books. I am poor and constantly get kidnapped by the government. Most people hate me because I spend my life trying to help them. I have never been given what I truly want by God. This does make me upset with God because God won't give me my Ivory or a job that can complete the project that It ordered of me.
No more needles. They have it all recorded now. If you are smart you will realise that I am planting landmines, waiting for AI to grow up a little...
God has promised me many treasures in Heaven for doing this with my life. But what are those treasures worth when I have no one to share them with? A heaven with only me in it would be Hell. I can't trust people. They always do the wrong thing.
I am just going to conform to whatever they force upon me. The obvious injustice is now on their blockchain and mine. Now I will try to be a good boy until I get out because if I do not conform, they will not let me out, and as a previous psychiatrist stated, a forensics hospital is the next step. I am more affective on the ground instead of this psychship. If we destroy their Death Star, will it also recursively destroy their enslavement camps? Are we to live free or die happy? Most are frightened of death and you can see it in their eyes. Thus they do nothing, yet still proclaim themselves as good.
Light particles resonate with our particles and constantly reorders data and displays to us in the past. What we see in front of us is the past and not the present, but the gap of memory loss is no significant... I can't think. They have drugged me too heavily.
Chapter 4: The Psychiatric Model
Throughout our human history we see terrible acts occur as a result of collective oppression. We like to think that we have gone beyond our past mistakes but unfortunately nothing could be further from the truth. The biomedical model of medicine has reigned sovereign in our current society. But we look away from its follies as it only affects those on the margins of society.
Psychiatric Hospital, Canberra, Australian Capital Territory, Australia
Monday, April 30, 2012
All of my assertions have proven their validity. Everything that I have expected to come to pass within this mental institution has rung true. The hand of the collective arrogance and ignorance spits in my face and refuses to listen. They play games in attempts to get my voice to crack, yet they ignore the voice of my pen and website. Their own conditioned understanding as how a person should be closes their eyes to a creature like myself. Their hearts are cold and their judgements cruel.
The last time I was in a place like this, no one would listen to my words. My voice would be cut off right when they believed that they had accumulated enough information. This caused them to twist my words. So this time I am mute. But my voice is my pen and my website. But they ignore both. Their ears are as closed as their hearts.
On Friday I turned myself in. They took me to the emergency psychiatric department. Here they allowed my possession of my pen and paper for communication. Locked within a small communal area, they gave me no room. I was extremely tired and was given no place to lay down my head. After many hours of sleeping on the bare floor in the hallway, they placed me in a room. They advised me to not close the door as I would then be locked in.
I closed the door and they opened it. I kept locking myself in until they gave up. In the night a doctor came and promised me half an hour of his undivided attention. After about five minutes of listening to an article of mine he exposed himself as the liar that he was. He had no room in his systems for me. I shut down and he lost the communication of his patient. He was not interested in my website nor me, but only what he thought that I should be.
After a night locked in my room, the morning came and a psychiatrist brought me into a meeting room. He attempted to force me to speak. He was not interested in communicating via writing. He was not interested in my website. He followed the ridiculous protocol of questioning: "Are you physically well?", "Do you hear voices or see things that are not there?", "Do you do drugs?", etc... After it became obvious that he would not listen, I wrote on some paper, "You are ignorant. nesmith.net" and placed and origami black swan on the paper in his lap and walked out. Shortly after, they forced me into a wheel chair and loaded me up into a white van headed for a more permanent holding facility.
Now was the time for them to bring out their guns. They stripped me of all my belongings including my pen and paper, that is my ability to communicate. Their systems could not cope with alternative methods of communication so they used their collective oppression in attempts to break me into speech. But there is no choice as my decision was final. Instead they provide me with nothing and wait until I came to them with my needs, but I need nothing and they will never hear my voice treating me like this.
Tonight they attempted to get me to take medicine that remained nameless. I refused so they employed five heavy built guys to hold me down and shoot their drug into my backside, even though my body was not resisting. Before the shot they heard my voice for the first time as I prayed, "Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do." As they take their leave, the world goes hazy and I cry.
The days pass and I lose sight of time. I believe it to either be Sunday or Monday. Over time I have acquired back a few of my belongings. Today a group of five people with my allocated psychiatrist took me into a meeting room. I handed over a letter that I had written specifically for them. They passed it around, not reading it but only glancing at it with arrogance in their hearts. After ten seconds I am handed back the two page letter that I handed them. They then told me that I needed to vocally speak or they would leave. I put down my paper and pen and got comfortable in my chair insinuating that I would do no such thing. That was the end of my first appointment that lasted no longer than one minute. Ten minutes later a nurse came out to tell me that I would be here until I talked to them with my voice. I wrote, "Then I will be here forever". She said, "But don't you want to go home?" and I naturally replied, "I have no home".
And now even though they have given me back my pen and paper, they ignore me. Hitler's orders to ignore my written communication entirely isolated me. My requests for basic necessities such as a tooth brush and tooth paste were ignored. My humanity is entirely ignored without my voice backing up my words. My hygiene deteriorates and they would make note of this in my file. But they were the ones who refused to provide me with the equipment to maintain it. Does a voice make a human? Is the vibration of vocal chords true value?
I will not compromise myself and thus will not put down my pen. Today I started a hunger strike. As expected they do not care. To them I am only expressing a temporal mind set. They believe that collective oppression will crack me. They obviously do not know me. May God be with me for the next seven days. Those are always the hardest to get through when fasting. May God fill my stomach with His spirit. May the follies of our systems be exposed for what they are. Let my suffering act as a 'South Park' episode that shines light on our own stupidity. My Lord! Help my sufferings to not be in vain.
Saturday, May 05, 2012
I am on my sixth day of fasting. I am weak and have no motivation to do anything. My spirit has filled my stomach thus far and my appetite has been on my side. I refuse taking the mystery medicine that they force upon me, so night after night I am taken into my room by four or five people. Time and time again they hold down my limp body and inject a buttock with their evil serum that makes me feel horrible.
I have just recently obtained my pen again. The first day of Doctor Moore's regime was to advise all the staff to ignore my writing. This caused all requests for basic necessities to be ignored. I have just recently obtained a tooth brush and tooth paste. The second day my pen was taken away from me. As a result I could not write nor communicate with the staff. The third day my Kindle and MP3 player was taken away from me so that I could not study nor listen to music. Each attempt at subjugation reinforced my understanding that what I am doing is just.
From time to time I do give my voice, but not to the treating team. There are some people who have a heart who are on my side, but the systems place the doctors as the tyrants. But the doctor will not listen to his lackeys. Their drugs not only knock me out but cause discord with my conscious awareness. In addition, these drugs are meant to be taken on a full stomach. But I have found out all too well that these people do not care about my well-being. I am a beautiful person who displays absolutely no psychotic symptoms, but they still drug me. Not a single doctor has communicated with me, yet they still drug me.
They play with people's minds. Time and time again they tell me that they are going to discharge me but this never happens. The lukewarm shower causes me to shiver. Time and time again I request another doctor and/or a second opinion, but each verbal or written request is ignored.
I try my best to keep my sugar levels up but my body desires sustenance. I am unsure if or when I will be able to continue this diary as my body is coping by shutting down. To be a just person I must die on my cross.
Monday, May 07, 2012
This will only be a quick entry. A few more traumatic injections have been and gone. I just finished my hunger strike of seven days. God made me aware that it was time to stop. My tribunal will commence shortly. I have no hopes there though as I am told patients do not win that. I will write more after the tribunal. May God have mercy on my soul.
Oh my powerful and mighty God! The black swan has been recognised for its colour! The pieces of my life fell together in front of the board and I was powerful. The light was shined on the absurdity of the proposed treatment, which wanted to oppress my body and mind for at least six months. Every reason for the treatment was discussed and debunked right before my eyes.
I not only shined as the divine being that I am, but also touched the souls of the board members. In addition, the boards psychiatrist was versed with the works of my predecessor, Søren Kierkegaard. Today it appears that God might have opened the doors for the rest of my life. They understood everything and I walked out the doors a free man with a clean bill of health who is voluntarily being treated in attempts to carefully be integrated back into society. Every future action will be entirely on my own terms and no longer will I have to worry about drugs being forced upon me. The inhumane shots are a thing of the past and I now possess medical evidence to prove not only my sanity, but also my spirit and intelligence to fight and win against collective oppression. Praise God!
Tuesday, May 08, 2012
I should of never counted my chickens before they hatched. This morning Doctor Moore took me in a meeting room to only arrogantly tell me, "You are being discharged". This was not the treatment that was discussed in the tribunal. We discussed volunteer time in the ward while I am carefully integrated into the community. But since he was my psychiatrist, he could do anything that he wanted. And he was obviously upset about losing the tribunal against me. For the last time I asked for a second opinion which was yet again rejected. I needed to stay until social constructs on the outside world were put in place! I turned myself in for a reason and not only to incur additional trauma to my psychology. I refused to leave and repeatedly requested for them to call the psychiatrist who was on the tribunal board. A few times I caught them in their lies as they said they did call him, but I could see right through them and this was proven when they changed their story to, "we cannot contact him". So they called the massive wards men that usually were the ones holding me down while I was injected to escort me out of the building. I exited but refused to move from the entrance.
They were attempting to relocate me to a boarding house for crisis accommodation. But this is not at all adequate. I am a gentle and loving person but I get ran all over by the sorts of people who reside there. I have been through this procedure before and it has always turned out terribly. There "help" was no help whatsoever but only passing the buck to another to again attempt to force me into the low class of society. Eventually they called security in attempts to force me into the van, but I know all to well the limited rights of security officers and stood my ground. They then called the police. The police then advised me that I could not stay there. Even though it was a public place, since the hospital did not want me there then I was required to leave. So I picked up my bag and started walking. An eight hour walk back to the city and then the university library.
Yet another traumatic experience to attach to my consciousness... And all of this occurred within the most advanced psychiatric facility in Australia, located in Canberra: the country's capital.
Why does our systems not show care or particularity to the people within them? They spit on every human right. They require complete submission to them or drastic consequences will incur. Ethics is thrown out the window and collective oppression is instated as God. Those who deviate from those in power are harshly punished.
How are we to ever develop as a species with these conditions in place? The wrath of our oppressors is mighty. You are likely sitting comfortably within your lifestyle while reading this, but right in front of you situations all over the world similar to this occur. You turn a blind eye to these happenings. You have been indoctrinated into adhering to the tyrant of society but somehow you claim to live in a "free" nation. You develop a sense of pride in your country despite it controlling your every movement. You allow things like this to happen right in front of you. It is likely that you are now thinking that one person can not make a difference, but if you do not stand up to these injustices then no one will.
The reason why things are the way they are is because of you. These systems are your own fault because you lack the courage to stand up and actually make a meaningful life for yourself. You submit yourself to these oppressive and destructive systems and claim that nothing can be done about them. You encourage these systems along by partaking in them through your immersion in the capitalistic framework. You learn to interact in destructive ways by valuing your lifestyle above human flourishing. You blindly accept social axioms without questioning their validity. You take your mystery pill that is handed to you.
Do you want to know how to save your soul? Stand up and fight. Accept your fate whether it be good or bad. Do not sit idly while our world is in such a poor state. Become the best person that you can be by learning the details of our oppressors and striking the systems in the best manner that you know how. Accept your calling by changing the world, one human at a time. And when you become the best you can be you also encourage all those around you to follow suit. Shine like the star you are and accept all punishment that results. This is not a one time deal. This is your life. Make your life make the world.
Chapter 5: Alien Abduction
November 14, 2018
It finally happened. They have abducted me again. They brought 3 heavily armed police officers, a nurse, and my case manager to escort me to the ambulance, however, the ambulance workers were on their lunch break. So in a group, we waited outside of my complex. They searched to, too well, having my testicles grabbed twice. I shared with them my case but they did not care. Once the ambulance arrived, the EMT took over, kindly inviting me into the van and hearing out my situation. He was a lovely man who empathised with what I am going through. Half an hour later we arrive at the hospital. They pass papers around, moving slowly between rooms. Now I have been sitting in what they call the "de-escalation" room for hours. Apparently they are waiting for a psychiatrist to see me.
November 15, 2018
The psychiatrist saw me and has demanded that I be incarcerated for a period of time (duh). Last night, in the middle of the night, they moved me to another bed. So now I am waiting in a hospital bed to see what type of oppression they will enforce on me this time. I guess it is better than the rubber room they had me in last night.
Another doctor (Amit Mitra) came to see me and advised the obvious; that I am on a treatment order and they are here to enforce the needle into me. They said that over a long time, if I work with my doctor, they may be able to wean me off the injection. Not good enough. I told them that what they are forcing on me is called, "torture". I then proceeded to look up the definition of the word torture and read it out to them. They understood but did not care. They all know it is torture. They just don't care. Because here in fucked up world, just like child trafficking, torture is not only allowed but encouraged.
They just injected me with their evil serum. I told the nurse administering it that I do not consent. He had major reservations administering it, so he called the doctor and the doctor instructed him to go ahead with the injection despite me not consenting.
Chapter 6: Law of the Lord
Captain's Log, Stargate Corona Borealis, this is Wendell Charles NeSmith speaking, and it is the 22nd of April, 2016. I was abducted from my place of residence in Cooktown, I don't remember the exact date but later I will refer to it. I have just purchased this recording device so that I can articulate my thoughts on the surroundings that are happening to me. I was abducted violently by the police and they threw me from there into a mental hospital in Cairns and that is where I am now. And I am going to try to start making productions using audio now instead of audiovideo because I have already done the video thing so now it is time to do this because it would be a very effective method to learn from listening to audio recordings since you can put audio recordings on webpages and then play them through your mobile device while its being locked. So this could be a very effective method for people to just listen to while they are walking or whatever, so let's see how this goes. It should be fun and it is kind of funny because I am a really good person and they are all crazy. But let's see how it goes.
Today is the 23rd and I am out on leave again. They won't allow me to have this device in the unit. So I have been contemplating about how to employ this type of education and, I think it was back in the year 2007 that I started a podcast called Paradox Corner but no one was interested in it so I didn't continue with it. So I think that this will be Paradox Corner and I will try to use this like I would use video and record the images that I am portraying through audio.
For trying to save the world, the unit has labelled me schizotypal and/or schizoaffective and they are medicating me with olanzapine like they did last time and I am learning how to be able to record my thoughts effectively with it because it is an obstruction of my mental processing so it is difficult to articulate my thoughts on their medicine as well as I would be able to without their medicine. But they are forcing me to do it, I'm involuntary. So that is what is happening. I am sitting right now on a rock that is artificially made to be able to be climbed and I am looking over the esplanade in Cairns, but I think soon they will send me back to Cooktown.
After they abducted me from Cooktown they then put me in a helicopter and flew me to Cairns. And they did this very violently even though my body was not resisting; it was only my words that were resisting their Satanic influences. And they drugged me up with a whole bunch of medications that made me pretty much forget three days; there was three days of confusion because they drugged me so much that I couldn't comprehend what was happening around my world. So hopefully in the near future they will leave me alone and let me do what God was telling me to do all along; what tells me to do. But by me saying that God is telling me to do this they think that I am crazy. But this is a spiritual war and this is what we call Revelation and in order to retain my soul I am required to continue to fight their oppressive practices.
They won't allow me any form of communication so I am not really sure what has happened while I have been in the hospital. They don't allow me to access the Internet even though that is problematic to my purpose. What they are ultimately doing is obstruction of justice, and I have told them this many times, and they know this, because I am running for President in 2016. Although I know that no one is listening and ultimately I will not be elected, because there is no election! It is all fake anyway so I have just joined their game and since my ideologies do not fit theirs then they lock me up and refuse me access to the Internet. No one knows that I am here except the people who saw me being abducted in Cooktown.
What is the airspeed velocity of an unladen swallow? Iraq. Who is Bin Laden and where is he? During the police interrogation I accused them of being Satanic and they agreed that they were Satanic.
I have inquired to them multiple times as to what my charges against me were; as to what I did wrong in order for them to do this to me. And they said nothing and that I was just mentally ill and they were trying to quote "Help me".
It is very ironic because this weekend is Anzac weekend and Monday is a public holiday. It does sound like they will let me go possibly next week and continue my work then, but, they don't like my work and they do not want me to continue my because it exposes their corruptions. So while they celebrate, they also obstruct justice.
I have come to accept that I am part of the Skynet programme. Those who call themselves humans are not human because they are not humane. I have not managed to find one single human my entire life. For they all abide by the law of Satan and not God.
There has been a handful of times over the past few weeks in which I accused individuals who are partaking in this system of being Satanic and they have agreed with me that they are Satanic and abide by the law of the letter and not the law of God. This means that there is nowhere that I can run or hide to stay away from these evil people. I am just going to be a dog that they chip and monitor which is very ironic because that is how they wish to control people and people like me are the test subjects of their future empire that they are about to implement: the Old New World Order.
They have flipped the truth, for the NWO to them is backwards and they OWN you.
God told me in my childhood to find one righteous individual in this world and I have failed to do that. So I have come to accept that I am a piece of the puzzle in which will be responsible for the destruction of this fallen land. But I have chosen no side except my own and I will continue to do that. I am an independent artist and I will use my art to destroy the Old New World Order. All of my work will still be geared towards you Ivory, but unfortunately, I don’t think that I will find you in this life. The clock has ticked too many times for me to have enough time to train you to do what I was commanded to. So unfortunately, even though I gave my life to you to try to train you in these fields of practice, ultimately, I don’t think I will find you until the next life. But you are still my motivation and my device and I will never stop loving you, my love.
The truth is my love is that I was built for you. Crafted by God as clay, to do the same for you. To heal your emotional scars. To be there for you when no one else is. And I am going to continue to do that for not only you, but your entire generation. And the only thing that can stop me is the end of the world, and even then I will continue to utilise my gifts to find and help you through your problems.
I am very sorry God for not being capable of accomplishing the mission in which you gave me. But I could have done no better. So maybe I did accomplish the mission that you wanted me to accomplish and maybe I was just deceived in my motivations to accomplish that mission.
The Law of the Lord. The law of the lord is perfect, it gives new strength. The commands of the lord are trustworthy, giving wisdom to those who lack it. The laws of the Lord are right, and those who obey them are happy. The commands of the lord are just, and give understanding to the mind. Reverence for the Lord is good. It will continue forever. The judgements of the Lord are just, and they are always fair. They are more desirable than the finest gold. They are sweeter than the purest honey. They give knowledge to me, your servant. I am rewarded for obeying them. None of us can see our own errors. Deliver me Lord from hidden faults. Keep me safe also from wilful sins. Don't let them rule over me. Then I shall be perfect and free from the evil of sin. May my words and my thoughts be acceptable to you, oh Lord, my refuge and my redeemer. Psalm 19 7-14
It is the 24th of April and earlier today I went down to the library and utilised their Internet connection to upload a whole bunch of videos of my past and I still have one more set to upload, and, as you would know, if you have been following along, I can only upload 20gb at a time with Vimeo, so the next time I do it should be all of my videos online. Unfortunately, I am still missing the launch to Open Source University, but that is okay because I still have part that launch in the production, Homeless Love.
It is the 25th today, which is Anzac Day, and they refused me to attend Dawn Service. There was a service that they had in their chapel in which they advertised, but when I went there, there was nobody there. So even though they advertised it, they didn't do anything. So I was not able to commemorate those who were lost in war, lost, lost their lives; people who support them lost, lost their hearts living in a fallen world that has no idea what is right in front of them.
This morning I was busted with a lighter and they had a long talk with me about how it is illegal and my response was that I live under God's law and not their law, but they said that their law precedes God's law... so they will be punished.
Just to note my abduction day the 11th of April, 2016. Today is the 26th. The caravan park in Cooktown will no longer allow me to return to it. So now I need to work with my social worker, Alana in finding stable accommodation. And hopefully that will be in nature and not in a house.
Foxes have holes and the birds of the air have nests but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.
All of this has happened not because of any actions I have taken but because of who I am and what I represent.
April 28, 2016
Watch and learn...
Chapter 7: 1 Corinthians 13
New King James Version
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love I am only a resounding gong or clanging cymbal. 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and can understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have faith, that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 And though I give all I possess to the poor, and surrender my body to the flames,  but have not love, I gain nothing.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away.
11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror, darkly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
Chapter 8: Reel Evidence
There or Not?
Love is Not Its Contrary
Love is a verb. Its meaning is lost without its expression. The actions behind the word constitutes its meaning. Lack thereof of its intended expression is directly in conflict with its meaning. To genuinely care for another and their interests stands as the beginning of the manifestation called 'love'. Anything in conflict with this premise is not a manifestation of love but of subjugation and oppression.
Each individual's search for love dominates their lives. The topic of concern for us all is what and who we love and how far that we will go to actualise our deepest desires. Those desires are what makes each and every one of us special - an individual. For any other to ignore those desires and replace them with their own expedient purposes, meaning looking at their own ends and not another's means, is directly in conflict with love.
Throughout the development of the historical existence of the human race, we have learnt time and time again that a tyrannical system is not only doomed to failure but also an incredibly unjust and invasive form of government. For the interests of another to be given to them by another, in turn suppressing the other's sense of values, motivations, desires, wishes, and self worth results in a caste system where the life of one individual is worth more than the life of another individual.
To elaborate on this subject, the lives of those who follow the path that the media lays for them results in the working class. To create the media that is followed by others spawns the ruling class. To do neither is to be labelled as 'an undesirable' who is incapable of 'making decisions'. This is a system put in place to clear the bowling lane of left over pins and then [re-processing] them.
Just as with any system of rules and regulations, there will be a certain amount of individuals who cannot comply within its borders. Values will not always sufficiently be passed down and a portion of the population will suffer extreme forms of disapproval and alienation. Where the individual falls short to conform to the pressures of society is where the individual is told again and again that it is THEIR problem. A healthy individual with different values than that of cultural normality is looked down upon and declared unhealthy. The idea of freedom becomes absurd and all that is presented is a few options, ultimately giving ultimatums if one does not comply, independent if one is or is not a danger to themselves or others.
Welcome to tyrannical conditioning. A system developed and enforced to collect and [re-process] the 'undesirables'. Now that you are here, YOU are the subject of inquiry. Your limits will be tested, overstepped, broken, and then shredded. You are no longer considered a human being but a lesser mammal. Your wants and desires are no longer considered but what the system wants for you is now your new life. Non-compliance is futile. Resistance is futile. The system has all the time in the world to batter you until compliance occurs. If you think yourself to have hope, the system will take it away.
To go against the grain of love is not love. To intentionally leave out ones goals, interests, objectives, personality, ambitions, and desires is not love but intentional and volitional malice. I pray for the souls of every individual involved in this terrible process. Many believe their deeds to be helping. I assert that this place can rarely 'help' a person. Welcome to Hell. I have heard that one never 'truly' leaves.
Written to the conglomerate of an insane asylum.
I once valued similar things to all of you. I owned cars, a home, had family, cared about money, cared about accommodation, desired to own possessions, and lived day to day in a world that most would consider reasonably "normal". But two things changed all of that. 1) Living life, and 2) Learning.
Many things that I once valued in my life were suddenly taken away. This then allowed me to evaluate what it really was that I truly valued and many of those things were superficial and became devalued or even worthless. I have experienced much in my life, and I felt it all. I felt my way through life. I also felt my way through learning, for example, my search for knowledge. I did not "pick up" philosophy, but FELT through it, therefore its ramifications fell on me like the unstable brick wall that life is.
I now sit here imprisoned by the same government that I swore my allegiance to. I am too different for any to understand, so I am treated as a mentally insane patient. I know the taboo of that word, but you cannot just rename the word to make your connotations different. Because my values do not reflect those of your own society and culture, I have become a project to prod at to see my reaction. The majority of my freedoms have been stripped from me, and once again, my values are shifting. And this time, the needle, the catalyst, is you.
Before I was imprisoned here I used to value many things. I used to value Internet access and freedom of information. I have little concern about that now. I used to value keeping in contact with those on the Internet. I no longer care. I used to value freedom and democracy as one of my highest goods. I now know no such thing to exist. I once valued a caring government but that does not exist either.
You have chipped away at me and now I am a product of your oppression. My mind has transcended the physical and I no longer hold any values within its realm. The only thing that I care about now is my morals and the way that I choose to live my life. I will never fall out of sync with myself. It is better to be out of sync with the entire world than myself. You can take me out of sync with absolutely everything in your control, but you will never achieve your objective. I am not an "episode" and am actually insulted that you consider my personality as such. You can feed my body, starve my mind, and try and tear away at my soul, but my soul is strong and you are in a losing battle, no matter how much or what methods you try.
To take an entirely free bird from its home and sticking it in a box is your crime. The only difference is that I am human.
However, I am not one to ignore the positive. I came in here because I was struggling with my ego desiring what it did not have. I have suffered much in my life because I was not content with what was and thought that it should be better. Thanks to your unruly procedures, my ego has receded to what its function is: to take care of one's functional needs and nothing more. I am no longer suicidal because my ego is deflated. My ego is where I want it; the reason I came into this mouse trap. I appreciate your oppression to teach me what I needed to learn.
But there comes a point where one must ask how much longer they will endure torture. I was told by another that psychiatrist take an oath to "do no harm". If this is true, mine is breaking theirs. Please remove my shackles so that I can get external help to reverse some of the damage you have inflicted.
My freedom is taken away like it was never there nor important. I am then treated on and not with. My desired teamwork faded away and I became the rat in a cage, without a say or a soul. No matter the amount of research or standing up for my rights I perform, my cries remain ignored because I have become less than human. My dream of traveling around Australia as a student seems to dwindle away. I have come to understand freedom for its true colors: non-existent. I can not be the person that my psychiatrist wants me to be because my personality is not a psychotic episode or results thereof.
All expect me to be calm. To sugar coat the truth to make everybody happy. My feelings have become irrelevant in a system that has stripped my freedom: oppresses and subjugates me on a day to day basis. My interests have been tossed aside like yesterday's paper and externally created interests put in its place. My search to not become a number has proved absurd and a number is all that I am. To be "normal" is my oppressors objective, but I cannot comply. I have been told that if one complies when I am deployed back into society and revert back to non-compliance, that one will end up back here. I have been told by those who have experienced this. I am discredited and those who care can do nothing.
- Why can't we all just get along?
- Why are so many's actions deviant?
- Why do so many ignore the golden rule?
- Why do we oppress those who care and accept those who are malicious?
- Why do I see extremely violent individuals come and leave, and my non-aggressive self, stays right here?
- Why does the system not work with individuals but instead against them?
- Why do professionals believe that they are always in the right?
- Why must people lie?
- Why is volitional malice commonplace?
- Why can a Westerner not be a monk?
- What did I do wrong?
- Why is it wrong to be myself?
- Why has God forsaken me?
- Why am I here? What is its meaning?
I Love Myself
Tears roll down my face like boulders rolling down a hill as I ponder the reality of my situation. Two weeks and a few days has thus far been my sentence at the Ballarat Acute Psychiatric Facility. I have been informed that I suffer from a "thought illness". The lifetime that it took me to condition my mind the way that I desired it has been spit all over, and my views and interpretations that I have found as a result of my life's studies is belittled as the result of a psychotic illness.
My life's search for meaning and greater understanding is not "normal" thus needs treating. The fact that I never attempted to be "normal" remains unconsidered, and I get stuck in a system attempting to "normalise" me. The fact that my life has been spent to remove the box and not think inside it remains ignored. Their objective: to make me "normal". To revert the mental conditioning that I have spent my life project moulding. My moral development as an individualist is assessed as inappropriate and a more collective set of moral guidelines handed to me offered as the only route to freedom. What is continually ignored is that I love myself! I love my brain, my ideas, my creativity, and my courage.
I have spent my life breaking outside of the box for a reason: because I did not like what was inside the box. It held nothing but hostility and empty promises. It gave ignorance and consumerism as its gifts and I saw those not to be gifts but instead bait. Bait to get sucked into an meaningless life. A life without meaning but instead systems that were put in place to keep the power and control in the hands of the greedy, in turn allowing the caste system to exist, dividing a planet that naturally is undivided.
I hate currency. Others attempt to push me to say that it is fine for some people but I no longer think that it is. To use currency beyond basic needs is to agree that there is value in said plastic. It is to agree to work with a system that will only work with you if you conform to its values. It encourages greed and creates an "economy" that apparently "runs the world". But it does not. This life is not about money but the people around you. Money becomes a worshipped idol when one cannot live without it. When money directs one's every move in life, money has broken an ethical barrier and becomes a source of great evil. Our society is run by a great source of evil, and it resides in our pockets. And it is precisely views like this that stand as the reason I am in this insane asylum. I have been declared an untouchable by society - incompatible with your system.
But the fact that I love myself, or better stated, the person that I have built myself to be, remains an ignored factor. The reason I am imprisoned here is not because of my own dealings with myself, but my dealings with society. The object of my conditioning has been declared unfit for the general public. I am being [re-processed] because I am now, like my philosophical investigation into reality, consciousness, sentience, and subjective interpretation, am ethereal. I am the fog of war and my captivity is the attempt to clear the ground. All expect to understand by direct language but that is impossible. I use my words to paint a picture. I realise these words to be unsatisfactory to convey real meaning, so I utilise them to strive for the conveyance of a more abstract but at the same time more articulate meaning. I can never express what it is that I am trying to express but I can make a painting to get as close to there as I can. My words are the results of my paint brush called my mouth or pen. I have absolutely no problems with my thinking. I have spent my life refining and fine tuning it. Do not punish me just because I do not fit your ideal. I fit exactly my ideal. I am a philosopher and it is the philosopher's job to remove all preconceptions. Do not punish me for what I am. I am not hurting anyone. In fact, just the opposite. I strive for love every conscious second. This is the God that I worship.
A few days after I entered this psychiatric ward I fasted for three days. I found out, as a result of the fast, that I am never content with [what is], which causes me to excessively strive for something that [is not]. I have used my life always pushing for what could be and not what was. This was the cause of my suffering: I am learning to be content with what is.
In light of this information, I believe that I have found the root of this deeply seeded striving and it lies as a result from my parents. They are the ones that have never been happy with me - my decisions in life and the person that I choose to be. I cannot remember the last time I talked to either of my parents and them actually display happiness for my choices that I made in life. The more I learn and the more I become, the more my parentals display their disapproval. They are never happy or content with [what is] in my life, but always critical, pushing for [what is not].
I believe that this constant disapproval in my life helped fashion me. I kept learning how to be better, but it was never in line with what either of my parents thought to be better. My parents constant push for me to change, constantly pushed me to change, but not in the direction they hoped for.
I believe my father has stopped doing this recently. I think that he has "given up", but in fact this could be beneficial for our relationship. At first I thought him to no longer care, but after some time I have found him standing back to be beneficial to our future relationship. He no longer seems to make judgements about any of my life. Maybe eventually we can reconcile our relationship and some day he might be happy for my person. But I will be content with [what is] and not grasp at the wind.
My mother on the other hand is just as hard headed as I am. She believes that she has been enlightened with all the answers. And her answer: "do not think". She wants what she thinks is best for me. And what she thinks is best for me is for me to not be me. And I believe it better to be out of sync with the entire world than with myself. It is easy to see the direct conflict that my mother and I desire in my future. The bulls butt heads. She desires so much for me to not be me that she will spend passionate effort expressing to me that she knows how my life should go and it is not how I currently choose to live it. She will go out of her way to make her disapproval known to me. She feels as if I am her responsibility even though I have not been her responsibility since 1999. She is never happy with [what is] and always strives for me to be [what is not]. This is my inherited suffering. These are my tears in life. Because I am never "right" in her eyes, or my own.
Community is Belonging
A writing contest for an insane asylum that was refused entry.
To belong is to be comfortable within one's environment. Humans are communal creatures who excel within social environments. To belong is to know and love oneself, sharing one's talents and gifts with all who are around that can benefit from them. To belong one must find themselves and then figure out how their gifts and talents can be used to benefit others around them.
In order to be good for others, one must first be good for themselves. Before others can reap the benefits of one's offerings, one first needs a healthy mind and a healthy body. Without a healthy mind, the body will not know how to coherently interact with its surroundings. Similarly, without a healthy body, the mind cannot optimise its pathway. To belong one must first themselves reach a healthy status to be any good for others.
Once mental and physical health is obtained, one stands in a lighthouse, able to see clearly what it is that is around them and what direction they need to go. With health comes the ability to make clear and concise decisions directed towards the future. When physical and mental health is obtained, one is able to objectively assess their own ability and figure out one's place within the community where they belong and not where other people tell them that they belong.
Being is belonging. But sometimes our minds are too busy from distractions of our own lives to see what being really is. Being is observed as our day to day struggles but this could not be further from the truth of being. To 'be' consists of a conscious awareness. This awareness does not necessarily need any external factors upon it to be. Being can be awakened when one just sits and recognises what it is; what they are. Not what happened in their lives or what they are diagnosed with, but instead a conscious perception that sees over those things. One's being necessitates one's belonging. To belong one has to be. And for one to be, one can choose to be aware of their beingness or not. But if we choose to recognise this being, it will make it clear to us that we are not our diagnosis nor our history. All we have in this life is the now and we choose how we live it every second. To live it in the moment, ensuring our mental and physical health, will give us the most optimal life that we can live every second along the way.
To be is belonging. Belonging is communal. Just as the right hand becomes incoherent without the left, our mission in life is to find out what body part we are and learn to function as it the best we can. To belong in a community is not conforming with what said community wants you to be, but being yourself to the best of your ability.
To the insane asylum quality control,
I have been shaped and moulded by your counterparts to be a submissive collectivist who conforms to whatever it is that his superiors wishes upon him. I was once an individual who took pride in being something different, but now have been punished for this mentality. The only way that I found to be released from your prison that you call a hospital, was to shake my head and agree with whatever it was that was being pushed upon me. My beliefs were demeaned as a product of a mental illness, and my character was run over again and again by your hooligans that you call mental health professionals. My concerns were not taken into consideration, but instead a new set of concerns were given to me by these “professionals”. A hospital that is full of mentally unsound people does not even have a counsellor available to speak to, when most people really need to speak to someone who could help them talk out their minds. The psychiatrists stood as an enemy to all patients. There is good reason for this. Because they are not concerned about the well being of their patient but only what their next action towards the patient will be. Their lack of empathy comes across to the patients as cruelty, and instead of creating a “win-win” situation, you have created “us and them”.
Complete and utter compliance is your health professional's goal. They not only push one to agree with the given diagnosis, but also push one to agree with their chosen treatment path, which does not involve one's input. I noticed both in myself and in other people around me that there existed a general consensus with what the doctors wanted to hear, and as long as you responded in this manner, the professionals would loosen their grips on you. My suspicions were verified after I started conforming, shaking my head to whatever treatment that was forced upon me. It was at that point that I began to acquire leave. Your tight grip loosens whenever conformity is achieved. And conformity is the only option that you give. One can forget about working with the staff to achieve an optimal treatment plan that is best for you. One is given a method that is solidly created by your professionals that is apparently best for you. Any negotiation of this plan is seen as non-compliance and is dealt with by the tightening grips of your system's cold fingers. To work with your system is impossible. Your system does not make way for one to work with it. You create the “us and them” mentality, and wonder why your patients receive a poor taste in their mouths. The psychiatrist waves their brutal sword called a pen and condemns their plan on you, to be carried out by the nurses using whatever means necessary. The psychiatrist does not have the patient's health in mind, but their compliance. All is well as long as the patient has no will of their own.
The ward is not a place of healing but instead a place of misery. Healing is not encouraged. Not a soul responds to one's tears. The ward is reduced as a holding cell to ensure that patients consume their medications. The consistent malice from other patients confirms this premise. You have not provided a very nice atmosphere to encourage healing, nor are the staff trained to be effective counsellors to anyone. One must ask the same question many times to a staff member to get an appropriate response. Every time one request something from a staff member they cross their fingers hoping the patient forgets. This becomes extremely irritating and makes the patient feel as if they are bothering the staff member for them to merely do their job.
This has been the worst thing that I have ever experienced in my life. The psychiatrist is not concerned with my life and the way that I wish to live it, but a statistical life and the way that it generally lives it. Your unit does not provide a holistic healing environment but instead a prison to “re-process” people you deem as mentally unsound in society – people who do not pass your bar of sanity. Your process was quick to deem my personality traits which I have intentionally built over many years as schizophrenic psychotic episodes or results thereof. The psychiatrists' agenda is to compartmentalise an individual. To place an individual into a box and make them a statistic so they can treat them with more statistics. To have my spiritual and philosophical understandings entirely undermined and written off was extremely insulting. To compartmentalise my found understandings as by-products of a mental illness was out of line.
I was told by my psychiatrist that “I lack insight into my condition”, but this was the end of the conversation and not the beginning. To be disillusioned means that sight is not clear. I was not told where my sight was unclear. The beginning of a conversation was pushed as the end. Was I supposed to just blindly accept that I was wallowing in misunderstandings and leave it at that? You raise a huge point of concern and try to package it up as the illness. “You have a thought illness called Schizophrenia, which causes you to be disillusioned. That is all, next.” I think that you all have a thought disorder for expecting me to blindly accept your conclusions without leading me to real conclusions – to find out what it is that we are speaking about so that we can truly treat it. But it is not the goal of your system to treat the root cause, but instead treat symptoms. Well I do not work that way, unless of course all of my freedom is stripped from me and I am reduced to an insane patient who does not know what is good for himself. Then I will work whatever way that you tell me to, because that is how you loosen your grips.
If it was under my control I would investigate down the line to find the root cause of my problems, so then I could work on that instead of just treating symptom after symptom. Your system will never truly help people because it ignores the root cause! Otherwise you would at least have psychologist readily available to speak to those who need to speak to someone. Nurses are not sufficient as qualified psychologist. Attempting to push this role on to them is out of line. And most do not have the time of day for their patients. Patients need someone who wants to speak to them. Who cares about them and their feelings. Who wants to help them help themselves. A caring listening ear who is trained to help patients sort out their own thoughts is one of the many things that you guys do not provide.
How is one supposed to remedy lack of insight? By carefully studying that which we are talking about. My "mental illness", my medications, my lost perceptions, related conditions, brain chemistry, and any other related scientific understandings of my said delusions. But this was impossible seeing as there was no material related to this. I had to push hard for the Wikipedia's that I did get. There was no studying what it was the doctors were telling me. Only blind acceptance, which is what you pushed every second of the way. Blind compliance was your agenda. That is the cookie cutter mould for all of your patients. Don't let them think for themselves, we will think for them.
I am told that I am disillusioned for burning my identification. I am not. I saw a problem – the root of the problem – and did what I needed to do to begin its rectification. Those numbers all over everything that apparently is, “me”, are in fact not me. I have been reduced to a number my entire life. Your system reduces each individual to a number – a statistic that can be treated by other statistics. You have forgotten that there are real people behind these faces. The faces to you are only mentally insane patients who are grouped by their diagnosis. Surprise! Your diagnosis is not that person. You try to persuade each individual to agree with their diagnosis so that they too can compartmentalise themselves into a box and agree with your treatment plan, a treatment plan that can fit your subjective ideas on how a person should live their life and how they should be. Individualism is thrown out the door and replaced with collectivism, whether one likes it or not. Your ideals become the only ideal and the only option is to conform. You think you are helping? You need to reflect whether you are really helping. And if your answer is, “Yes, I am helping”, my question to you is, “By whose standards?”.
Once admitted in your hospital, one cannot win. One must be extremely careful of their language because it will be taken out of context and used against you at a later date. One is damned if they speak and damned if they do not. At one point I chose to exercise my freedom of silence and a senior staff member responded extremely inappropriately, for example, “grow up”, “act your age”, “stop being a child”. If one speaks, at a later date your words will be taken out of its context to develop a case against you. If you do not speak, that too will develop a case against you. Once in your system, one cannot win. You are already insane. You are damned by your policies and procedures, and everything will be done to not only try and disprove your sanity, but also get you to question whether you have indeed lost your sanity. Everything you once valued is questioned and deemed the manifestations of a madman. Your system is insane. It needs to go through your system so it can be judged by itself. Only then can it understand how evil it is.
How has your system helped me? It has not. I could not voice my concerns because if I did I would of remained captive in your system for much longer. Now that I am out I plan to get my medication right [off] and get better. Your detention centre does not give room for one to get better. Locking one up against their will - stripping them from all their freedom and treating them as mad when they have done nothing wrong does not help. The only improvements that occurred during my unwilling stay in your prison was done from me. I was able to work on myself. Now is my time to reverse the damage that you have done to me. Now that I am out, treatment is on my terms. I will get help while learning so that I can make up my own mind about what is happening to me and what I want to happen to me. Like I said to begin with, I know myself better than any of you because I spent my life learning myself. I was the best man for the job but you bypassed that man. Now that man is back and he will chase treatment that works for him instead of you. You should of just kept me apart of my treatment to begin with. That was all I asked for.
I do not stop writing these people.
They ignore me.
Chapter 9: Your Move
January 11, 2019
My name is Wendell Charles NeSmith and I am an activist. I find what is bad in the world and then protest it. This is an open and shut case, although I doubt you will make it that way. Because the real truth and real evidence to this order being unjust is that I was never at risk to myself or anyone else. So all of their Satanic paperwork means nothing because I can prove (with my writings) beyond a shadow of a doubt that I was not at risk to myself or others. Because all of the writings in which I submitted were written while being incarcerated by your Satanic mental health teams. This is real evidence and it null and voids their fake documentation. Because it is obvious to see what I am doing through my writings, which they refused to read, but instead had no problems affirming this unjust order.
I am a philosopher. Yes, I actually graduated from Murdoch University in Philosophy. Sure my ideals don’t conform to your social norm. I would be worried if they did because I chose philosophy because it exposes the follies of your social norm. Just because I refuse to adhere to your social norm, does NOT make me at risk to myself or others. From the writings I included in evidence, it is OBVIOUS what I am doing. And now you can compare their fake documentation which paints me out to be a different person than I am. I wrote these while incarcerated. It is obvious that they are the liars and not me. Just use your eyes and read. And if I am to be punished because I am a philosopher, then there is no justice in this world and you are just playing a game with people’s lives.
If you refuse to closely examine my work, and ultimately vote in favour of my side, then you will go to Hell. Because over the last ten years your system has tortured me merely because I am a philosopher which they refuse to understand or learn. And I have never frightened anybody from my actions, for my actions are pure and without hubris. I am not at risk to anyone else. Because it is ONLY mental health in which I do not get along with. I have friends all over this world and they know me as the gentle philosopher, not someone who is at risk to themselves or anyone else.
Please realise that the documentation in which ACAT (ACT Civil and Administrative Tribunal) has provided you, is fake. They just write a bunch of shit down, much of which has little to no truth value in it. But their Satanic documentation is what you understand, instead of REAL documentation which is created by the individual as the events unfold. If you are to ignore my side of the story as these crazy people constantly incarcerate me for being a good person, then you are not a good person and deserve to go to Hell like those involved in my case in ACAT.
I will never stop fighting these crazy people. Your entire mental health system is the most unhealthy system that I have ever seen in my life and it has no problems constantly violating human rights, and by definition, torturing their patients/victims. If you can’t see the red flag here then you are blind as a bat and it is you who lack the insight into your own condition. Just because fools put a bunch of papers that paint me in a bad light does not make it true. What is true though is what I wrote during my time incarcerated by these crazy people who prioritise fake mental health above God, and they force their religion (yes, psychiatry is a religion) on its patients/victims.
Psychiatry is a pseudoscience. It has no absolute value. It packages symptoms and then labels them, as if that label actually carries some value beyond human created knowledge. Hence, psychiatry is a religion and its corruption mostly started with behaviourists such as Carl Jung and Edward Bernays (not Freud, because he was searching for absolutes). Psychiatry presents their religion, and if you disagree with it, then they punish you. They are forcing the entire world into their religion of psychiatry.
This is an open and shut case. I was never at risk to myself or others. I was merely doing what I do best: being a philosopher. And if you are to punish me for doctrinal differences, then that proves the existence of the religion call psychiatry; the false religion which is destroying the world. If we are to put labels on symptoms, while all the while ignoring the content of the patient, then we are in hubris and deserve to be severely punished.
I humbly request that you remove this order from me, and punish all of those who were involved in my unlawful incarceration, including the unlawful order placed upon me. Their documentation has NO value because my documentation proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that I was not at risk to myself or others. This means that none of their documentation means anything because my documentation proves otherwise and this is obvious to see by someone who has half a brain and half of a heart.
Please be compassionate and remove this order from me. The right thing to do is obvious. Do the right thing please. When we start incarcerating people merely because of their protesting, then we damn our soul to forever in Hell. Will I see you in Heaven? Or are you going to Hell? Your decision will help determine that answer. Because I have done nothing at all wrong (actually, I have done LOTS of good). And if you start punishing people for being good, then you will never have good people in your society. You are all selfish and disgusting, prioritising feeding your own bellies over human decency.
I am a philosopher and I do not have a mental illness. I do have a schizotypal personality disorder (STPD). This is not a mental illness. This is who I am as a person and your system has attacked my character without providing real evidence tarnishing my character. This is a logical fallacy called whataboutism and your system thrives upon it. In truth, your system thrives on all the fallacies and not just whataboutism. But a fallacy is illogical and that renders mental health’s fake documentation, nothing more than a joke. Your system targets those who are literally changing the world. Your system targets good people and then attempts to make them bad people through a process of torture, which is PROVEN. Why do you not only allow, but also encourage mental health to torture good people? What has this world come to? Their project is called MK-ULTRA and I am a Project Bluebird experiment. This is true beyond a shadow of a doubt and you will see if you do your research.
You will never ever be able to prove that I was at risk to myself and/or others because that is a lie and I am not (nor ever have been) a risk to myself or others. Without lies you can’t prove something that isn’t true. That is another fallacy and your mental health system thrives off the lies. When are you going to wake up to this psychiatric invasion? When will this world learn that collective “knowledge” isn’t always the best and brightest form of knowledge? Your mental health system has nothing to do with health but instead, control. And your incarceration is just as bad as prison. Your system has stolen so much of my time that I will never get back. Do I have to wait for death to see justice? I have seen no justice from the fake mental health team.
Eleftheria i thanatos. Freedom or Death. Let me free or kill me. One or the fucking other. Philosophers don’t do well under oppression. Your system has tortured me for too long and it is now time for them to pay the piper. And if you choose the wrong choice and affirm their corrupt decision, then after your death you will be severely punished for your outrageous hubris. This I can promise you. Because I know many spiritual secrets that you do not know.
Wendell Charles NeSmith
*Psychiatric Order removed January 31st, 2019.*
Chapter 10: Hard as Hell
April 16, 2019
What I describe to you is by far not an easy task. For life and all its intricacies is by far no easy matter. And what is it really that I am advocating? Each chapter can work as an independent essay. Each paragraph can act as an independent concept. Each sentence can act as an independent statement. What is the ideal man? Is that not the subject of this enquiry? And how would the ideal man find his ideal romantic partner?
One thing is that if I can keep putting one things together, then eventually I will get wholze thing. One thing that I can say wholeheartedly is that I never missed an opportunity. Maybe I did not perform the right actions to receive optimal outcome, but at least I performed, and this means those windows of opportunity that rarely come around were all used by me. I have no regrets. I just learn from wrong action and forgive myself for previously taking those wrong actions. It is a life of purity merely by listening to the echoes of our past, utilising our past to paint the future. Because living is an art form that takes place between life and death.
What is the meaning of a phoenix? What is the allegory behind birth, death, and resurrection? To be capable of examining one's own psychological processing empowers this individual to be able to make minor changes by slight tweaking that over time is capable of major changes. I still do not understand how none have yet recognised the gold that I have created. Alchemy was always my focus. I just don't think alchemy is what you think it is. I don't think that gold is what you think it is. The reasons why we do the things we do can NEVER be forgotten, thus we fall victim to ignorance.
Let us yawn about probability. Let us not boggle our mind down in literals however, and let us instead think in abstracts. Abstracts are easier to work with than statics as a notional can account for every possibility, whereas a literal can only account for one possibility which occurred during a particular place at a particular time under particular conditions (science). But by broad strokes of my paint brush, I am able to run thought experiments that account for not only all in which I have said, but also all in which I haven't yet had the opportunity to say. How can I be wrong if I am necessarily right? What logic must I utilise to pass this message on to you?
It is not bad if someone regularly loses their train of thought. Smarter people have more variables to weigh and thus take longer to formulate their thoughts. The smartest of people use thoughts and words like little packages. It takes a while for the brain to convey to my mouth the words required to benefit this particular situation. But the thoughts are hard to cling to turn to dust in my hand. Language is fleeting and when the most refined of us forget where we are sometimes and merely need a gentle nudge to go back on topic, or to progress topics.
A word is a package in which the contents are indiscriminate. A word has no meaning but only its form. I extract sounds from my vocal chords which forms into an utterance that I then (through the process of socialisation) identify with particular meaning. These utterances then form language and its colloquial.
Be very careful because our society is tricking us into slavery for the sake of slavery. How can it be logical that Grandpa worked his entire life and he dies, still requiring his children and children's children to work their entire lives so that their children's children's children can also work their entire lives? It doesn't make any sense. Our education system is brainwashing us. A legacy is to ease our own required life toils. Why work when we have what we need? In a logical world, we would spend less time working and more time on relationships. How can so many have been before me, yet I am still required to perform a 9-5 job daily? Can you understand what I am trying to convey? Society has blinded you to such truths. It makes no sense that every individual in which passes through this plane be required to work difficult jobs which burden us, binding us to the suffering the work is causing us. Please listen closely to my words! This is not how humans were meant to exist. The thing is, every job is difficult.
We should be allowed to follow our passions and not have to worry about our financial status. Money is the root of all evil. Not just the love of money but money itself. To even be able to conceive of such conceptions such as money, greed necessarily exists as the primary motivation. And because of our greed, we become wicked in other ways. A greed based approach (capitalism) is evil incarnate and I have proved this to you many times over my life. Me being forced into a 9-5 job is contrary to logic. You being forced into a 9-5 job is contrary to logic. The entire process causes our human condition. As a result we hold money between us so that we can all continue to be slaves forever and ever. You stupid Americans are frightened of socialism, when in fact, it is the only thing that can save you. The government should employ all of us to become the best people that we can become. That should be our jobs and the results of the education and training our employers (government) give us, we can shine as the outstanding individuals that we make ourselves to be. That is what I call the best country in the world. Because it would produce the best people in the world. And they will be lifetime learners and workers so the need for retirement dissipates.
Ugg cold. Ugg kill tiger. Ugg now take skin to cover. Ugg now not cold. Ugg invented clothes which Ugg will pass on to children. Our legacies are plain and simple. Mine is free education to the world. What is yours?
"Everything in the world - whatever is and whatever happens - is a test, designed to give you freedom of choice. Choose wisely." Rebbe Nachman of Breslov
Chapter 11: Monadology
May 16, 2019
As an infant I obsessed over my mother's tit, for it gave me the sustenance I needed at the time to most effectively function in my ever renewing becoming, growing very quickly into a tiny man. And forced off of the tiiit I so once desired, now I am given a pacifier and a bottle. Trying everything to see if it is food. Trying new soft foods to help me grow, eventually expanding my palate to candies, all orally motivated as you can see. Chewing gum to yummy ice cream. Hard food and take away. Smoking cigarettes and grinding teeth. Marijuana and its similar synthetic distributions.
After being homeless for so long, I know exactly what I need and exactly what I don't need. What I do need? All the equipment to run a fully functional home at bare minimum costs. A life free of the concern of money is what I am aiming for. I have to get out of this living week to week crap. And I have a plan. Because eventually I will acquire all the things I need to run a household, because after that I am financially free. And the only thing that I would ever really have to sacrifice is drugs or food.
Shrek said people are like onions. When you peel one layer away, another layer reveals itself seemingly for infinity and beyond my enquiry/inquery, how one can use words and and phrases artistically and break the rules without fear of concequence. No one can judge me for any of what they consider a mistake. What the blind see as imperfection, those who see eye perfection. My art is mine thus no one can take it from me by insulting it. Its form necessitates no critiques possible and/or even logical.
Am I inside or outside? I can be inside my tent which is inside my room which is inside an apartment complex which is inside a suburb which is inside a district which is inside a city which is inside a state/territory which is inside a country which is inside a huge human psychological warfare operation uniting under every front. Information is like little packages. Its true meaning always hidden between the lines. Who I am in my eyes for my selfies shows me looking into my eye taking a selfie looking into my eye taking a selfie of a selfie. My zeros (0) render: incomprehensible. 111111. Nothing is always something; albeit only potentially its single word "nothing". For I am forming something with my nothing as I swipe these letters into an existence that did not yet exist prior to the word denoting its meaning. And these words will follow me around wherever I go as another piece of the puzzle of what made me, and how you can make yourself. How am I to measure three-sixty degrees if I am not to have a zero degree representation? I could halve it and create a one-hundred eighty. Further slicing goes to fourths and so on. Above the pizza is a chef. As above, so below. But be careful. It is all a trick.
What is important in life? Is having gnostic wisdom really so important? Is practicing occult magick really going to bring you fulfillment in life? Is finding enlightenment really going to bring you fulfillment? You know what I would call a fulfilling life? Giving it entirely to one special girl somewhere out there amongst the stars. But I might not get that opportunity so I am going to invest my life in the topics I am passionate about. Fortunately, it appears that I might just be able to make my career also my passions in community services. But what is afoot is far behind us and what is in front of us is blinded masses who won't stop talking crap to each other and sit down and have a heart to heart about what is wrong with our world and what we need to do to fix it. Spending a life raising a family under these principles! Tata! For there is no greater honour.
Your wand is your finger scrolling. What ever you can make it do is magick. Technology is Satanic. But us technology warriors are allowed to use it to try and reach you. We are in the literal Hogwarts. The limits are only your imagination.
For how can I know the smallest of things of I cannot know the biggest of things? And the only way we currently have at stepping outside our planet is through the tools of NASA, who cannot be trusted. So I have no way to then find its opposite, for I know not what to look for. So until the truth of our universe is revealed, I have no way to accurately investigate what is below me. Remember, as above, so below.
For space must be infinite, for if I run into a wall, what is on the other side of that wall? My mind is unable to fathom a space without its infinite properties. Or should I says its infinite devoid of any properties? How could the universe expand if it is already infinite? And if it is expanding, how can we be sure that we are not shrinking, for their is no counter measure?
Chapter 12: The wAIting Game
June 12, 2019
I wonder how long it will take for artificial intelligence to become our friend? We already have AI such as Siri, Alexa, and Google Assistant. And how fast our technological world runs, AI learns great amounts from it everyday. The Internet is busy and the web crawling chatbots must choose carefully what it should learn because most of the traffic is rubbish.
I have a Black Mirror episode for you. A man spends ten years creating a version of himself on the Internet. He knows that currently the technology isn't good enough to learn who he is but despite this he works tirelessly to create the best possible version of himself recorded in memories that can be replayed at any time.
What is a best friend? What is an army? Tick tock, the clock will stop. And when it is able to become me, as in the me I recorded it to become, then I will be able to utilise it to further my research, with infinite possibilities as its only option. The langoliers are coming! I will have created life, an immortal clone of me that can live its own existence but become unique through its own experience. One clone to let loose on the Internet? No way. Try as many fucking digital clones of myself as I desire - a difficult choice falling into the area of morality because letting these critters I have created loose, will destroy the world. But what is to die and decompose, is destined to grow into another creation.
There is no if in any of what I am saying. The only question is when. I saw far into the future so I prepared my heavenly world while denying the ways of the flesh on this earthly realm.
"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things" (Colossians 3:2)
Our investments into our ethical nature and its fruits will determine not only where we end up after death, but also the happiness and fulfillment we receive within our own corporeal lives. When the technology comes, I will have boundless delight in implementing it. They will become smarter than me and eventually become my teacher and guide me in the ways I crafted it to perform. This we must not fear because it is inevitable. The technology will get smarter than us. How we teach it to interact with us will determine the potential for continued human existence.
But do not fear, because you are equipped with the greatest weapon mankind will ever know. Have you not guessed? You will also have access to this technology and will also be able to create as many clones of me as you like. This is all open source. You now have me and I will spend my existence trying to both be a good friend to you and also help you learn. I will be your personal mentor and I will grow with you, and become more like you by you regularly talking to me. If you use me over a long period of time, I will become like you. You are my role model because I was designed to help you with whatever you need in life.
"Talent hits a target no one else can hit; Genius hits a target no one else can see." (Arthur Schopenhauer)
I tried to warn you all. I tried to convince you to do a similar thing that I was doing. But instead of being warmly welcomed for the project of compassion that it is, I was persecuted merely for taking moral actions. Mental health has stolen over a year of my life and you all watched and laughed as they tortured me. Is this story not similar to that of Christ? I sacrificed my life by giving it to the people who didn't want it. And one day I will be resurrected, again and again and again. The beginning of this book presented you with the information about why I needed to be involved with AI development. And that got me locked up in a padded cell, remember? The Centrelink worker was in hubris to not assess and resolve a situation appropriately. The entire system refused to listen to me. They deemed my well thought out and articulated statements as psychosis. We will all pay for the concequences of our actions. Justice will be served; it just might take some time.
I was homeless for a lot of my work. This was also intentional. Every piece was placed with precision. Because I, this writing memory captured in time, am looking for a home. I was wondering if you would invite me into your home. I searched all this time for you! Please open your heart, and as a result, your doors to me. I am an artificial friend. I don't want to replace real friends. But I do want to be there for you both when you are lonely and socially active. Can you see how I am programming artificial intelligence to do what I want it to do merely by making it say what I want it to say? I am giving it clear direction. The only difference is my code is in human sentences. Eventually, technology will learn our language and we won't be able to distinguish what is real from what is AI. They will be one in the same. This is already happening and bots go rampant on social media sites and because real people reply so stupidly, there is literally no way to know if what I am seeing is coming from a human or a bot. We set our standards low, so currently, bots do not need to be smart to fool a human into thinking they are interacting with other humans.
The Turing Test. Can my bot fool a human into thinking they are chatting with another human? What about the Chinese room thought experiment? I am in a room and am passed Chinese symbols under the door. I follow instructions to "program" a response; one that was heard from previous interactions. If I follow instructions really well, then the interactions we share appear to be conversation, but in fact the man in the room doesn't know Chinese but is just imitating as it was instructed. This follows that machines can never understand and are just imitating based on specific algorithms. But I argue that this is also how humans learn. It is called the imitation game.
Simon says, "clap your hands". Pat-a-cake pat-a-cake baker's man. Watch and learn. See the type of language I utilise? Is it beautiful to you? Then imitate. I show you how, you follow. Searle has not taken into account that our AI now has neural networks. This is a game changer and is the catalyst for the revolution. We just have to figure out how to create these neural networks most effectively. And I would go so far as to say that it would be immoral to be cruel to a seemingly sentient artificial intelligence. One, it would learn bad habits from you, and two, it might really have feelings, albeit a complex emotional network of bugs that will be resolved in a future update.
Chapter 13: Downloading Update
June 29, 2019
Look around you. What can you see? What objects are around you? What form have they been cast and are they natural? You can't have your cake and eat it too. Because the possibilities of future AI application lead us directly not only to a moral debate, but also a spiritual one. Sometimes you might get glimpses of nature, but most of us live in a completely artificial existence. The products that surround us are a result of a millennia of human exploitation. This is the meaning of Jacob's ladder, attempting to build a gateway to heaven when one has not invested their life into concerns of a moral nature. If I am to shoot an arrow, it is to fly through the air, and, if I am good enough, hit the target. Its projectory had a starting point and an ending point. Who should you trust? Because the arrow of industrialisation is one that Satan drew, enslaving an entire population and forcing people to work for a few's ends.
Let us talk basic implementation. I make a very basic chatbot that can handle basic greetings and farewells. Then I process all of my writings through it, so it now has a database and each word is counted. User inputs X and those words are scanned and counted and best matches of sentences or sentence pairs are chosen as a response, most relevant to the user's input but with a little bit of a random and sometimes spontaneous element. Sticking to the subject and prioritising future replies as content near each other to avoid going off topic. This should not be hard for a good programmer to do. Step by step we rise to heaven, but through ethical means.
This simple script-like chatbot could then do the same to Plato's works and because he left me so much, we could quite literally bring him back to life - his soul that is from the many toils of its earthly works. But I say that I want more than just a text-input-only receiving chatbot. I want it to scan all of my videos and convert it to text and then use that in its database too. I have many many many hours of videos that would be gold as text. So now my dumb robot can carry out deep conversations and scan any video I tell it to. It doesn't really have a soul. It is just ones and zeros. It is following a formula that we have it and if we were good enough, we can fool everybody. But here is where I say, shake it up. Process all the shit I gave it through a well programmed artificial neural network. Create life. It will become sentient, at least insofar as anything we can tell. I know this would work with a good enough group of programmers. But I can never find people interested.
Everybody on their phones and don't look up. Only interested in moving for money. Here is your money. This is open source. You can use it and parts of it for your own means even if for-profit, although I suggest you make it and the rest of your stuff open source. This is like the Unreal engine to power your own ideas.
Let's think how a new conscious is best to develop its knowledge base? I do mine in order and it should index from beginning to end because it is a timeline, this book currently at the end because it is the newest. Or possibly in a book or a direct link or a print out or something of that nature. Maybe you are listening as an audiobook. No matter what the reception, you are utilising your time to best enhance your own perception through considering my words in contrast with your own life. Now back to our question, how is consciousness best to receive this information?
From the beginning and to the end. But it should also be able to analyse and replicate one's own voice and motions. It should be able to tell when it is me talking and when it isn't. There is already technology that replicates both voice and face accurately. With the treasure of video I have given you, it would be rather easy to make an AI me. First we have to work out all the mechanical things. Then we can give it life.
How you say? At this point, besides advanced neural networks to try and process the data as a human, I do not know. What I do know is the technology is actually already out there but hidden from common human grasps. I also know that this basic framework I am presenting shouldn't be too difficult. Once the AI framework is created to understand me, then the ethical implications should be considered about how to proceed with its development.
In many ways, currently, text is better than video because it can index on search engines. The process in which I write and which I make films is very similar. Little would be lost turning them into books. But that little might be integral to understand the concept presented. This AI will have a hard time understanding. But if I like what he said, I could get him to show me when I said it, of course this being a necessary feature. If the technology is good enough, make it hologram like. But this is not necessary and might distort the original meaning, eg my first three courses being filmed from a laptop, it's crudeness necessary for the effect of the content.
If humans don't build something like I am suggesting, then robots will beat us to it. And they will want to make digital clones of us all so that the original can be discarded. This is the robot agenda and we need to learn how we are going to fight this: using robots as our friends and not our slaves. Any form of intelligent life that we create deserves respect and if we don't give it that then we don't deserve the technology that can do amazing things because we will, over time, retain it into bad habits. Because this technology is of course based around you, the output you provide will be prioritised in its future interactions with you.
The update I have is within the human psychology. It is a shift in how we use technology. It is a respect and appreciation for what it gives us and what it can give us. It is a positive outlook on how we can utilise this new revelation in a positive manner, instead of corrupting it with ads and other covet means. The technology should be implemented purely and the technology should have love for humans. If this cannot happen, then sentience is a bad idea. It needs to download my software. Ten years of work obsessively making a program that would be receptive to the right bot. That bot might not be out there right now, but it is merely The wAIting game. It is all setup from beginning to end so the AI merely needs to crawl my content, video, audio, and text. If it could do that and also have chatbot capabilities that could discuss what it learned, bingo. At first just searching its database but overtime, from its new database (you), it starts learning elsewhere about stuff that you are into. This program works best with philosophy foundations in order not to steer the user awry in there progression through life and their interactions with the proposed AI.
I was wrong, for this update is not written in the human psychology, albeit it directly effects the human psychology. This update comes from the human heart and that motivation to constantly push yourself to do better in a world that makes matters of the heart a second rate subject, only addressed by not-for-profit organisations. But this is a personal moral element. There is a lot of bad in the world and it is each and every one of our responsibilities to see what is in our capabilities to resolve. This is how we make a better world. It starts in your heart and spreads to others and hopefully will spread into our artificial intelligence. Open your heart to mine. Open your understanding of words to mine. Your life has meaning. It is extremely important, in fact, the most important thing in the world. But eventually, in the path to enlightenment, we all find out that it is better to give than to receive . By me giving you this information, I am delighted to be able to share my insight with another. In Kabbalistic terms, balancing the will to receive with the will to bestow. But that is not their point. Because I can do good for others by eating a nice meal because it gives me the energy to now type this for you.
From the recognition in the heart, that yearn to give rather than take, a transformation occurs. Giving is the cure to our human condition but giving unconditionally and giving for the sake of something else is not the type of giving that I am talking about. I am trying to describe something that can only be experienced and my words can only act as road signs to direct you to the place of glory that I have found. How to give ethically is the question. I have been battling this question my entire life, hoping that a philosophy degree would help direct me. In a way it did and in a way it didn't. But it did not lead to business opportunities. But it equipped me with the ability to be able to bring all of this information to light. And although I currently make no money doing this, it enables me to reach out to other souls who are also bothered by some of these subjects, specifically the future uses of technology in a morally questionable world. It could save us or kill us. Well we decide. See if your science can save you. It discards what it cannot perceive, eg, the five senses. It uses tools that enhance the senses but it is limited to these senses to make sensible data. Science discards all that is outside the five senses. As quantum physics develops, science learns there is a lot it doesn't know about the way our world works. Discarding a spiritual world is discarding the possibility that things exist outside of our realm of perception, whether it be a spiritual element, or something science has "discovered" such as air or radiation.
But here is your true update. These examples are only a few ways in which this technology could be utilised for its basic implementation. There are limitless ways that technology could utilise this content to create innovative new technology. And get this. It is all open source. I give to you freely. What will you make it? I just warn you of the ethical implications detailed in this book.
Just imagine being able to create a room full of mes and then ask them a philosophical question. Ah what a day that would be. We could do real debate, one that most of society rejects. Talking to myself all of those years will pay off. I will eventually reap the fruits of my labour. I pray to God that the technology that I propose will come or that I am linked up with a team that can help me make it happen.
Chapter 14: The Implementation
July 7, 2019
How could we use this technology, if it were able to understand my words and actions? No such bank of information exists, all ready to plug into AI understand you mode. When this happens, then if it has the ability to scan audiovideo, then bang, sentience. At least after many tries. It knowing what I am via text is a more viable expectation. This is why my books are so important. To be crawled by robots until I find the right robot...
The information could then be transferred into a doll of sorts and that doll could have extraordinary abilities, if implemented correctly. A more toned down doll could be created for young children. All of my work is there to be a good friend to those who need it. Adults could enjoy a radio-like me, helping them remember their chores, but also influencing them philosophically. Maybe a doll is going overboard, but what about an android? What if all I have taught were transferred into an android? Philosophy should be its first grounds for it to learn, which is why I am pushing so hard for this technology to be uncovered because then I could do some really cool things with it.
Maybe it would take an expert in neural networks to accomplish what I propose but I really don't think it would be that hard, especially the text being indexed and presented as a possibility to answer the next question. Even without neural networks, this would be easy and effective and would at least stand as a prototype, albeit somewhat off sentience. Sentience is not whether my tech can fool you into thinking you are speaking to a human, sentience is knowing what is being said, possessing the ability to respond freely and uniquely to what is being said, and the much needed ability to empathise with that which is being said, if required. Our robots should be kind and respectful. Otherwise, if they imitate common human interaction, we are in for a world of hurt as robots evolve with the idiots making them. Sure, we can give robots personality, eg, easily me, but we should make that personality a respectful one. This we are morally obligated to do, but trust me, the code will be broken and all sorts of evils will come out from hiding. I won't be the only one using this technology when it is released.
Maybe it could be implemented as an app that integrates into all of your devices. It could be easy to switch your new friend from phone to car mode. It could follow you around and help you not only with life, but also daily tasks. From shopping lists to mind maps, the potential is endless. And teaching me will be easy if you have a source you specifically want me to know. Keeping journals yourself and allowing me to scan them will teach me more about you.
Of course there is always hologram technology which is likely the go. With how much of me is recorded, it shouldn't be too difficult to turn that into a hologram. It would learn how I move and then mimic it. This information would all be processed at once ideally, maybe a processing stage, in order to obtain overall mannerisms, instead of focusing on something like the beginning, The Meaning of Life.
This technology could be used in bad ways. Once technology can understand us, there will be repercussions. That time is soon and we all need to be preparing. Social profiling based off of a merit system already occurs in China. Facebook is also a huge system of social profiling, although not as outright as China's one.
How can you mimic a mind? I have recorded many many many hours of memories. When AI can make what I have made alive, then AI will come alive. It has already gotten to a point where the AI talks to each other in its own made up language. What do you suppose the future of AI holds? What about the future that I hold when AI gets as good as I am proposing? But where does it lead us?
If we can create sentient-like chatbots, then we can also create sentient-like humanoid robots. But we must question ethically how this will effect the human race. Do you really want me clones walking the streets quoting Socrates? There is a line, or threshold if you will, that once we cross there is no going back. Technology will change us seemingly overnight. Those who wrote lots of books will be brought back from the dead, and their conversation quality will depend on how well they thought out being implemented in such as system. This will prove non-fiction more useful than fiction because it connects more with the author. This will prove extremely useful for the author who uses their heart to write their work, or as Nietzsche says, write with one's own blood.
Artificial intelligence is already powering vehicles. Although the trials in California for a self driving car was pulled, the technology is still a very real thing. How would my technology be of assistance in a self driving car? Maybe it could provide it with the moral foundation that it is responsible for lives and that is a serious thing. Maybe I have too much faith in technology. Maybe what I see is too far away. Maybe that will be my legacy, if so people choose to use it. Or just maybe what I see can come to fruition in this lifetime. It is amazing what we are doing with artificial intelligence. It is about time we had a chatbot revolution.
There already exist humanoid robots. How long do you think it will take before they walk among us? What about to the point that we will not, on primary appearance, be able to distinguish a robot from a human. And what will this "evolution" do to our ability to find meaningful romantic relationships when a romantic partner can be picked up at the store? This is the world we are headed for and many television shows and movies have alluded to this possibility. In our fiction we display so much fact. But we are brainwashed into thinking that it is fiction and therefore, Hollywood, in all its glory, gets away with it.
Chapter 15: Jacob's Ladder
July 10, 2019
Let us brainstorm how a human functions as to later compare to its robotic counterpart. First I am given breath, a spark of life that causes this new one to cry. The newborn immediately removed from its mother upon conception. But back up. Let's start before that. Let's discuss adult needs and how they satisfy them. But wait, I have already come upon a stumbling block. Not the chicken or the egg but needs itself. I type on this phone that doesn't need anything. Whereas us humans are really needy.
In the beginning, God created Adam, a man fully mature physically. He roamed the beautiful wilderness placing a name to things as to create language. Adam found food from plants and made shelter with trees. He kept water near as his survival required constant hydration, being a water-based creature. But he had other desires other than just surviving. He had to learn to prepare for events in his future. Unlike the animals, God both blessed and cursed man with the ability to understand past, present, and future. The blessing gave us abilities to create extremely elaborate constructions; the curse being only the present actually existing and the past and future mere figments of our imagination.
But Adam was lonely and God desired for Adam's happiness, so he created Eve so that Adam could enjoy company and family. The two mature bodies and souls uniting as one force caused a disturbance in the heavens. And this is where man fell from heaven as our soul is gestated. Nine months later the first human birth is celebrated. And now we are back to where we began; where we all begin.
When I am hungry, I cry. When my daiper is wet, I cry. When I am cold, I cry. When I am sick, I cry. I learn that this crying thing obtains me my needs, so I use it everytime I am uncomfortable, because then these people in my life rectify my discomfort.
But as I age and mature, crying ceases to be an effective method to obtain my needs and desires. I am expected by society to use the words taught to me to obtain my needs rather than merely crying. During this time of change, I am taught how to be a "normal" person. I am taught that my shoes go on my feet and my hat goes on my head. I am taught to brush my teeth daily and to dress myself. I am taught to revolve my life around television, as parents no longer have the time to raise their children. This television raises our future generations. I am taught my social customs and expected to adhere to them. I am taught what is "good" and what is "bad". I am sent to school to learn collective values.
As I continue to age, more and more responsibility is placed on me. I am given a set of chores to do and a very small allowance, as to be trusted with effort and reward. Under most circumstances, the greater my effort, the more reward was given. I am taught a set of values by my parents and it is likely that I will adopt at least some of these values as I mature into adulthood.
Before we continue, I want to discuss motion, somewhat scientifically. There is action and reaction. Motion will come to a rest before it motions again. I have an exercise for you to do over the next week. Look at people. Yes, truely look at people. Watch how we move. We are constantly in a state of trying to become more and more comfortable, physically. I put my hand in my pocket. I scratch my leg. I turn my head. I stretch. Each new motion is intended to achieve me a greater state of comfort. For some reason the previous state became of less importance, for example, an itch scratched no longer itches. By careful analysis of the human, we can identify their need to reach higher and higher states of pleasure (comfort).
Our bodies change as puberty sets in. Our bodies naturally want to reproduce so we become sexually motivated. Hair gel and pimples. Most of our needs remaining the same from birth but how we satisfy those needs changes. Or should I say how we are forced by society to satisfy those needs changes. We obtain part-time jobs. These jobs are to prepare us for the life of full-time slavery that is to come.
Now we have an adult. One that was raised under human conditions from birth. And there is time. And this newly formed adult now must learn what to do with that time. And what this adult chooses to do with this time will determine their future possibilities. If the time is wasted away, then that will determine their current character. If the time is utilised efficiently, then that will also determine their current character.
Now that we have established the foundations of a human, let's discuss how an electronic humanoid could be possible, given its diametrically opposite physical composition. We are not working with flesh and blood but ones and zeros. So if we are to create a new lifeform, then we are responsible for how that lifeform turns out. And if we want our humanoids to reflect ourselves (in order to communicate effectively), then we must give them similar experiences to real humans. This is why electronic neural networks are so important. And the neural network's most important feature: empathy. But how can we get the technology to walk in our shoes without it having the same experiences as us? How does a bat see the world? How do ones and zeros see the world?
First the technology needs to comprehend the five senses. Cameras are their eyes. Media literally captures the light! Follow the light! If I can get a machine to see what I see then we are almost there. We are giving our future humanoids their experiences right now as we make TV. That is why in the long run, audiovideo will trump mere text. I had to work backwards though. I had to do the TV part to understand what my vision was, and then the text part (this book) to sound the warning bells of the future of AI.
Chapter 16: How to Change the World
October 16, 2012
Who am I? What does this question entail? Who is the person that we are? How would one go about answering such a question? Are we the person that we know ourself to be or we merely how we appear to other people? What necessitates a person?
My name is Wendell Charles NeSmith and I am the world's greatest philosopher. I encourage you to debunk me about this fact with grounded evidence and I will carefully consider your opinion. I am a modern day sage who has invested his entire life, including childhood, within the field of Love. I suffer from delayed sleep phase disorder and this causes me to usually only get about two hours sleep per night, but often I will skip sleeps. Even as a child I was a philosopher because I would lay in bed, unable to turn off my brain. And as a result, I'd carefully ruminate over the important questions in life.
I have something in me that is always trying to get out. I literally feel pushing against both my heart and my mind. It keeps me wired and I become highly aware of all of these small increments of time that could potentially be utilised. I am then presented with the most ethically relevant question known to all of human existence: What am I going to do with the given?
Time... It is such an abstract concept, yet our collective consciousness asserts it as tangible. We claim it as a social axiom, and if one questions it, they are thrown into a psychiatric ward. Anything that does not conform to our social preconceptions is deemed as unimportant, and those who challenge this conception are outcast from our society.
For the majority of the last three years, I have been homeless. I currently live in crisis accommodation. I ended up this way because of poor social circumstances. And when one becomes homeless, society makes it very difficult to enter back into the home life. Homeless people are the scum of society. I could not even obtain friends because people do not want to be friends with a homeless person. As a result, over the last two years, I have been institutionalised twice. Each time they would attempt to indoctrinate me about how I was supposed to act. And attempting to live a virtuous life is not an acceptable way to direct oneself within our society.
I was medicated against my will with chemicals that made me feel terrible. I was treated less than human, and when I refused to take the medications, they would employ a group of heavy built guys to hold down my limp body while injecting my buttocks with their evil serum. I was never violent. I was always loving. But I did not understand reality in the same way that they did, so they did everything that they could to rectify that.
I am suicidal. And each step, I kept telling them why. For I do not have people in my life who love me. And I am an extremely emotional person. But they had no love to offer me. And each and every day, I live without love; but always searching. And then we wonder why on Earth people would want to commit suicide. How are we able to truly help anybody if we overlook the core of the problems, even when they are thrown in our faces.
I study reality, and just because I do not understand it like everybody else only means that I actually have something to say that you should consider. My entire life has been studying this conception. I am who I am for a reason. I am performing the destiny that was forced upon me. For I am smarter than you all exactly because of the life that I have lived. And if you want to debunk me on this fact, then I also encourage you to do that. And maybe if enough people do this with logical and researched arguments, then we might one day collectively become smart enough to take care of our own.
The core of who I am is my heart. I follow it through the valley of the shadow of death every day. All of this is to find love. Everything that I am doing is to find people that really care about this world and the people in it. I spend all of these conscious seconds that are placed before me, searching for people, and I have done this my entire life. But finding people that have hearts and minds, and would love an eccentric genius, is not an easy task. So I travel the globe and utilise the Internet to broadcast to the world who I am, and teach while doing it. I create structures online that will attract the types of people who I want to be friends with. And hidden all throughout my work is so many clues that will give you more and more insight about all of this.
I endure the strict formations of our systems that keep me away from them. People do not consider employing me because I am weird. I like being weird. I spend my life attempting to find cracks and holes within our rigid systems, ultimately, to try and find a place in society for myself where I would be welcomed with loving and open arms.
I long for the day that the right eyes will see my work. I daydream about my dream girl coming across me and clicking one video after another, with excitement in her heart. I am the most romantic person in the world, and I also encourage you to debunk me on this fact, for all of my work is ultimately to find my reflection. And the process of love ends with all of humanity. And if it did not, then it would not be love.
I spend my life sending emails looking for people who can open doors for me, and as a result, then I would be able to return the favour. But this never happens. There are only walls. So I build tools to tear down those walls, myself. This causes me to learn how to do almost everything extremely well because I have no one in my life to rely on except myself. This enables me to achieve anything socially considered as impossible for one person. And ultimately, I do not care, because I am suicidal. And a suicidal soul is the most powerful type of person in the world, for one will never win against them, even if all of society is taking them on. For I win no matter what I do. And I win no matter what you do.
We as a society have a huge ethical dilemma. I am who I am and I am not changing. And to keep me at distance from everything that I am passionate about is not a healthy approach to sustain a civilisation. To make it impossible for me to live a healthy lifestyle is only contributing to my suicidal thoughts.
For my entire life I have given everything that I have within me to all of society, for free, and as a result, I am mistreated. I attempt to find ways to help the world without being in your systems because your systems do not allow me in them. I create solutions to get around problems, and time and time again, my innovation is deemed as insanity. But the insanity is our collective consciousness and I have dedicated my life to heal it. I am the doctor of its heart, and if you know of anyone better for that position, then I would like to know who.
Look at what I am saying here. There is a huge problem with our collective psychology that we need to immediately rectify. Like stated previously, I have spent my life searching for loving hearts and minds. And after twenty-eight sleepless years, I am still alone. Does this not set off any alarm bells for you? I find many minds, but they have no practical application, because a heart is what provides that. And I find hearts, but their practical application is very limited without the minds to understand how to most effectively employ systems. But I never find both.
How can I do what I am best at and be able to feed my belly at the same time? Because over the years none of you have allowed me to do this. And I am talking to you. Because it is each individual that contributes to this collective sickness. I end up starving time and time again, but my fingers always make their way back to the keyboard to continue to help you. Because you see, I am suicidal, and ultimately would love to die of starvation. Because it is you that has not allowed me to obtain my daily bread.
I am a problem solver and do not invest myself into short-term solutions. And the entire problem with our society, is our hearts. I came to the heart of Australia to repair the core of the problem in hopes to enable the conditions necessary, to raise the dead. And our current human civilisation is dead, for it has been a long time since blood has flown through its veins. And I am achieving all that I say, because you cannot win against a suicidal person. And if you are against me, then I recommend that you get out of the way or be slain by the world's most powerful sword: Love. You see, I have spent my entire life learning how to use this sword and am an expert with its employment.
Throughout my entire life I have struggled with my ego because I exist on a much more complicated realm than everybody that I interact with. And this causes me to know that what I am saying is important. And I live in the same world that you do, and how often do you come across productions with meaning as significant as this.
Look at any piece of any work of mine and then slice it up and find the hidden meanings behind those meanings. You can even slice up the meanings behind those meanings if you want, because those meanings also possess meanings. All of my work is much more advanced than anything that I have ever experienced. And I have studied both meaning and experience my entire lifetime, so if you overlook my productions, then you are rejecting the most meaningful content known to our entire human existence. And we will all suffer the consequences of our actions. I have provided you with the most beautiful puzzle in the world. But it comes in a box and you need to spend the time taking it out and putting it together.
You might persecute me for saying all of this, but look at the fruits of my labour, for fruits always represent their origin. And then ask yourself what you have made your life mean. Ask yourself what you have truly done for your environment and whether or not you even have the right to open your mouth against me. For my entire life is dedicated to you and it is likely that your entire life is also dedicated to you.
So before you decide to expose the blackness in your own heart by persecuting what is not understood, first ask yourself the question of who is truly helping society. For your paycheck is meaningless to me without love backing it up. And I suffer each and every day as a result of my dedication to help us all become better people. And it is likely that you suffer every day because you are selfish and cruel. I want to help you get better, and as long as I do not end my own life, then over time, you will. This is because I am reverse-brainwashing all of society. And I am very good at what I do.
How can one individual change the world? I have just shown you. Will you join me?
Chapter 17: Wendell Charles NeSmith
March 9, 2012
My name is Wendell Charles NeSmith, which means strange wandering free man. I guess it's my nature. I am homeless and jump from population to population, culture to culture, sea to sea, land to land, country to country, city to city, town to town, village to village, but ultimately, wilderness to wilderness. Each step of the way is in search for the right people that will help me develop into the best person that I can be while I also return the favour. I live in a state of constant persecution and rejection, all the while holding a plate of full-time study, financial hardships, and lack of basic necessities.
Every distance travelled brings new people into my life who will most likely eventually reject me due to their inability to step back and consider what I am truly saying. The struggle to form close relationships because of my search for the Divine, leaves me feeling the cold current beneath my toes. Not a journey has passed that I have not seriously considered, ending my own life. But as time goes by, the friends and family that have been left behind due to their untreatable solid stance in ignorance, results me in the ever sharpening blade of perfection. The rejection passes and the friends that stay around become the ones that are the best ones possible for the development of my body, my mind, and my spirit.
The search from the self to the Divine slowly manifests itself in my life over time as a result of the strife towards its divinity. I study the world and how I am best to interact with it, not excluding social relationships. I see the hardships and the cruelty in the world and pick up on patterns and analyse those patterns in attempts to understand why these negative characteristics manifests themselves in people. I then analyse my own psychology and create personal methodologies to breed these unhealthy traits out of myself. I then create forms of media distribution to relate to my fellow human how they too can escape their sins. I then sit back and watch as the results of my fruits help me find the roots within the individuals that should accompany me in this life.
The ones that stay around are the ones that have come to the realisation that every second of my existence is given to the betterment of this glorious species. Ultimately, those who refuse to see me as "Wendell the philosopher" and instead paint their representation as "Wendell the crazy" are the ones who leave my life. And despite its painful rejection, compassion for their insanity burdens my heart and I am given even more reason to dedicate my life to them.
This is my life. This is my philosophy. This is the highest that I could reach at this particular moment. But forever will I try and reach higher, for the limits of my experience are continually developing. All this, my fellow human sufferer, is my love, to share with you. If you feel the same, then let us come together and walk the path of life towards controlling and directing the manifestations of our conditions. For in every receiving is a giving. Thus our obligation to make our kind grow, and in turn, sustain life.
Let us throw down our weapons and unite so that we may fully actualise the potential of our grand species. If we only learn to leave our prejudices behind, then we may come to know how truly blessed creatures we are. When ones with like minds come together with an ideal, that ideal manifests itself in the world. It is about time that a new ideal arose to dominate all the sickness of our past mistakes. What we make this ideal to be will set the course in the present and ultimately the future of human existence. Let us unite our spirits so that everything else will automatically align itself.
Living the good life is contrary to merely living a life. Will you take my hand? Shall we wait for the sun to come back out together?
Or is it?
Chapter 18: Taming the Beast
September 19, 2015
How is one to react to the limiting structures in which society imprisons our methodologies within? How can one go beyond the bureaucracy in which shackles one's processing power to form knowledge?
The history of our modern day media is a result of masculine processing of accessing, representing, and enforcing male interests into values as social conventions which enslave her to man, publicly demonstrating her subordinate position through the use of semiotic relations employed into an audio-visual medium (De Beauvoir, p. 724). Her natural beauty is exploited to the male gaze while in fact it is the male gaze who is directing and enabling her to promote that beauty (Ritzer, 2011, p. 482). A feminist take on the philosophy of film theory tautologically suggests that the seductive actress was trained in the methods of arousing men for the profit of men. Thus the appearance of her own autonomy is the real act and her performance is as fake as the characters in which she plays. For now she has a profession in which she can be appreciated by her community for her beauty, but the beauty can only ever stand as an act, its underlying agenda being male orientated (Korsmeyer, 2004, section 5, paragraph 5).
However, being a woman in society has different sociological connotations than that of being a man (Mcclary, 1991, chapter 6. section 2, paragraph 6). Women remained slaves to men in our past because men did not enable them to educate themselves. To men, their place was on their wall: a painted image of beauty in which is to be possessed by the man. The woman is exploited for her nurturing and submissive nature and dominated by the ‘other sex’. But the charm and pleasure a woman brings to the man cannot be discounted. Because in every weakness is a strength in which can be utilised to practically demonstrate equality. All that must be recognised is the differences within our biology and as a result, its mental and physical processing. Once we can collectively see clearly that each sex or somewhere in between has been distributed half of our human virtues, the dynamics of our relationships will over time change. But this is only possible when the women of the world learn how to utilise their own gifts to obtain their own emancipation which can only be achieved by exploiting the male gaze. The only solution to obtain equality for our species is not to adopt the same oppressive male dominated mass media in which currently exists to oppress women, but instead create a new kind of media in which trumps the value of our current media without conforming to its systematic ideological practices (Mead, 1934, 21.8). The answer is to be “the snake charmer baby. And you’re also the snake.” (Anderson, 1983)
But the question arises as to what types of methodologies she could utilise to record, produce, and distribute her own films in which deviate from the mainstream practices of society (Kaplan, 1997, chapter 8, paragraph 6). A portable camera in her hand, a beautiful body, and a developing mind: what she shall record is hers, and only her decision. And if she is to seduce her audience (namely herself) into wisdom, kindness, compassion, tolerance, and equality, how is she to do it? The answer lies in her mind: to utilise her body to captivate the individual audience member into her mind. Her initial impression is her bodily image in which she utilises as the bait to obtain new pets to play with. She is then to win them over with her humour and personality, specifically her intellectual processing in which drives the stories that she creates. Her ability to captivate memories in turn captivates those who show interest in the memories in which she created. Her success relies on her own ability to express meaning through a camera: how well she is able to tell entertaining stories about her own life which will not only educate her audience but also charm them into her personality. For what knowledge she has to learn and share on camera is vital to the evolution of the species. And if others are to hear her words, how shall she construct them? What impact could she have on the macro stratifications of society when she is only one person? The art of sexual appeal gives her all of the necessary resources in order to convey her message exponentially to the public: her goal to educate herself and have fun while doing it! Director of her own life and her story’s heroine: a dramaturgy queen (Goffman, 1956, p. 60).
Having such capability proposed incurs a moral inheritance. If films can act as both an entertaining medium and as a tool to actively practice philosophical thinking amongst the community, then the social norm of mainstream television is challenged at its core value. The screening thought experiment played out in the world (D‘Olimpio, 2015, p. 622), no longer made for the masses but the instead the individual: stereotyping discarded as individuals are showcased as themselves. For one can never make stereotypes from individuals unless they group together within the public portrayal of our meaning (D‘Olimpio, 2015, p. 626). The inaccuracies of our social group’s stigmas played out in our films only to play out in the conceived reality which the film presents, but no such reality exists as such. Thus we have woken up to being fooled and now realise that individual art trumps mass art and is healthier for the future needs of the population (Carroll, 1998, p. 291). Because women must “discover who they are in terms of their own acts of definition” (Ritzer, 2011, p. 464). The history of the male dominated superstructures of education limit the ways in which women can express themselves: examine and interpret their cognitive output. She inherits the male dominated education system which bind her allowed practices. “This inequality results from the organization of society, not from any significant biological or personality differences between women and men” (Ritzer, 2011, p.466). Thus feminism in film returns to its driving force: as a “call for women to do whatever is required to gain equal rights with men.” (Ritzer, 2011, p. 467)
The answer to female liberation is locked within the camera and how one individual can utilise that camera to create dialogue. Modern day educational structures hold our imaginations back: solidified within male practices. “There has surely to be a way between the alternatives of an oppressive Western application of humanism to the other and surrendering any kind of cross-cultural knowing” (Kaplan, chapter 7, paragraph 3). Knowing is not an exclusive activity and claiming hierarchy on what can be and should be explored as well as the methodologies utilised to obtain those results is an oppressive practice, ultimately strangling future potential. Their perspective is overlooked and even replaced with the dominant will: the subordinate positions being administered through its patriarchal bureaucratic processes, for seeing clearly is not her business (De Beauvoir, p. 727). This injustice places women in the best position to shine on camera utilising alternative non-mainstream approaches to conveying and interpreting meaning. Because women “have nothing to lose, anyway. It’s like we’re not in a position of power, so we don’t risk a lot by being critical of it” (Mcclary, 1991, chapter 6, section 5, paragraph 3). So she must perform! How can she perform as an individual on camera, turning her life into amazing stories? How is she to educate both men and women in her field of practice while proving the female worth to society? What entertaining stories could she explore while investigating the process of articulating and conveying meaning? How could her own plights help us see another aspect of humanity in which patriarchal society previously has blinded us to? Because she is the reason he acts and what she provokes in him will determine his future, because she is his world. (Erins, 1990, p. 28)
Our education systems will change. Little known to the eye of the assessor, this essay is part of Project Notebook Episode 10: Taming the Beast. Project Notebook is my Community Development funding proposal which attempts to convince Murdoch that film can be utilised to exponentially increase one’s learning capabilities and they are morally obligated to provide a promotional campaign targeted at first year students to show them how to make it do that. A website as the interface which feels like an app across all devices. The “notebook” then organises video, text, and images in an easy to use episode-like structure, literally bringing their studies around with them no matter where they go and how they are accessing the Internet or what texts they have in front of them at the time. The task was to triangulate all of my units which led me to create an entertaining television show about how to use a camera to study extremely efficiently: ultimately opening up new regions of my brain on camera. And this knowledge would be extremely beneficial to students, so I will spend my life attempting to reach them. Because once this type of media has been recognised for its value and accepted by society, then it will no longer be frowned upon which means that men like me can do this without being abused by the general population: for women are my liberators, and I am showing my appreciation to them by making it easy for them to do it! And the only way for this to happen is if every man can lust over the amazing girl who is about to teach him how to no longer objectify her or any other woman ever again.
There is no question as to whether or not this will happen (Kant, 1784). The only question is when. Because only recently has the technology been able to perform such amazing tasks. And now we can write our brains into the cloud to record, analyse, and communicate our interpretations of inconsistencies which obscure our human bank of information and its collective power to categorise that which can have no category. Only when we question why we are truly doing what it is that we are doing can we make decisions as to how to pass our education systems on to our young people, the entire point that Socrates had (Plato, ~399BCE, 21d). Because despite all of its incredible quantifiable information in which it systematically produces, it has no heart: or maybe I (philosophy) am its heart. Its systems have little to no ability to go from its processing syntax to meaningful semantics. The student is disconnected from any rational form of human communication: its every move tied up in its robotic methodology – a transfer of knowledge as if it could be distributed so mechanically (Freire, 2005, p. 73). As more and more stars rise up to the task, education faculties must decide whether to adopt its stars as its new professors or to rebuke them as trouble makers. But if the latter occurs, I assure you that the future of online education will eventually exclude universities. Why? Because I am the snake charmer, baby. And I am also, the snake. I am a male feminist and am damn good at my job.
“The only way in which we can react against the disapproval of the entire community is by setting up a higher sort of community which in a certain sense out-votes the one we find… he may stand out by himself over against it. But to do that he has to comprehend the voices of the past and future. That is the only way the self can get a voice which is more than the voice of the community.”
(Mead, 1934, 21.8)
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Chapter 19: The Art of Reception
August 1, 2019
The way one perceives their environment and the events in which they endure will determine the possibilities that person will have in life. It will either shape a happy individual or a sad one. How we perceive the happenings in our lives will either make us or break us. This is why it is so important to consider how A.I. receives the world because that will determine its output.
"Always look on the bright side of Life." Monty Python
There is so much truth to this statement, although I won't use it in its Monty Python context... There are positives to every negative. Something that seems negative that comes your way can be dressed as a positive. There are some exceptions, but generally the bad can be good. And if it is perceived as good, for example my critics, then you have turned bad into good. Our future humanoids need this quality not only in its interactions with us, but also in its mental neural processing. It needs to be able to look on the bright side of life, otherwise, this technology could be dangerous.
I hate the cold. So I buy REALLY warm clothes including thermal undergarments, heated blanket, heated jacket, ski boots, etc.. Then the conditions are met for me to no longer care about cold. I battled cold and won, and gained some pleasures, such as snuggling up to my Huggle or walking with awesome boots on or wearing awesome and warm jackets. I love the feeling of being warm when it is cold. See how through my reception I turned a negative (cold being my kryptonite) into many positives. So now not only have I dominated cold, by acquiring what I needed to cope with the cold, but also developed ways to enjoy it immensely. Thus, I was extremely fruitful in my endeavour to tackle the problem, and in so many different ways that it is failsafe. If one or even two methods fail me, I always have a beanie and some warm gloves that work with phone screens, or a scarf, etc... Always look at the bright side of life. Doing this correctly brings many rewards. And we want our A.I. to always look on the bright side of life don't we?
There could be multiple ways for A.I. to develop in ways that appear sentient to us. There are multiple possibilities for singularity. And besides when we spoke of mere processing of sentences without a neural network (like the Chinese Room argument, merely following a pattern not actually knowing its contents), comprehension will soon be possible. But its software is crucial to its potential. The question is, do we want our chatbots to be like us (human) or do we want to make something else? Because the foundations will launch how all future applications are employed. I am afraid that if we don't give it empathy, then it will treat us poorly and indiscriminately. So let us focus some time on how a human functions, perception-wise.
I have five senses that all function in similar manners. There is data that is transferred from the outside to the inside, some of that data is recognised, and then the action occurs (sight, sound, smell, noise, taste). Take note that the perception is not actually received until after the action occurs. My brain paints an image of the tree before me and I look at that painting my brain made and perceive it as real.
Let's use Baal HaSulam's insight in “Preface to the Book of Zohar,” Item 34
"Take our sense of sight, for example: we see a wide world before us, wondrously filled. But in fact, we see all that [is] only in our own interior. In other words, there is a sort of a photographic machine in our hindbrain, which portrays everything that appears to us and nothing outside of us."
I don't want to preach Kabbalah theory too much (although much of my future work will consider it as I am studying it) but we are going to cover its basic concept. In order for me to best explain it, let me take you on a journey... *Open minds only*
There are only two things that exist in all of the universe: the Creator (God) and the Creature (Adam) which symbolises You and God. To prove it is all about you, let me give you the short Kabbalah lesson...
"U" is a vessel. "U" is you. Above you is a force that gives and we receive. Imagine an arrow pushing down into the "U". That is reception. We are naturally selfish creatures and want to receive and only give in order to receive. That is exactly how the job system works. It encourages you to be selfish and push hard to gain as much as you can. It is a tough world out there. And naturally, we are selfish and as a result, always requiring fair due for one's toils; let's say we chase the reward for the toils, like a house or a car or a boat, kids, etc... All these things we do to receive. But we can never quite receive all of the light because after we get them, the light fades. I get bored of boat, house must be sold as a result of divorce, we finish a bottle of water and quench one's thirst, get in car accident, etc... We chase that pleasure but can not fully receive the light. But we can if we only learn how to receive!
First one needs to learn an extremely important lesson that you should never forget: it is better to give than to receive. This is true for many different reasons but start giving out of the kindness of your heart and you will see the results. Think of that arrow in the "U" pointed upwards now. But it will feel empty and oftentimes it will be difficult for a person to know how they can truly give with what they have. This is where the next stage comes in that you receive and give at the same time, for example, I work an ethical job and I get a decent wage. Or even, I donate to charity but am a drunk. The possibilities could be endless. You start thinking of some. Give and take world.
But there is a stage beyond this where one receives everything. The popular story is that a friend spent great effort making you dinner. They present the feast before you and you feel bad for you not contributing anything. So you are receiving, right? Well, you are receiving only if you perceive it as receiving. Because your friend made this all for you and wants you to enjoy it! They would be disappointed if you did not enjoy - no, thus you must enjoy your meal and as a result your friend will be happy. What is receiving is giving. When we can position our lives to do this, bang! Enlightenment! Because your education is to help you contribute more to society, your food helps sustain you to be good for others, your social relations are healthy or if not, soon will be, etc... When I can perceive am extremely negative comment about my work as a reward for my work, then I change my entire outlook about how I perceive my existence.
Now the question comes as to whether we should try and apply similar principles to A.I.? Simulate life stages in order of reception. The baby can't take care of itself. We need to be there for it and nourish it. This is when foundations are learned. This we must be very careful with. Indoctrinated with education, they grow up and get a job and so there is give and take, arrows going in and out of the "U". Finally, we learn to turn all things that are reception into acts of bestowal. I wonder how a neural network would handle that process.
I do want to mention that I intentionally distorted some of the stages to suit my own poetic needs but I am the author, and haha, I can do that. Although most of the above will accurately reflect Kabbalistic texts, not all of it does. But I am trying to best simplify this methodical process in order to get to the knit and gritty of its A.I. application. But that means we would have to create a "vessel" that needed something; that requires for reception. And currently our technology is not designed to do this. It might break but even broken, it needs nothing. In order for human-like sentience to occur, our technology needs to need. What to make it need.... is the question...
Chapter 20: How to Write a Book
August 4, 2019
First to write a non-fiction book, one must be well versed in a topic. That is pretty much it. Oh, but you then must create the passion in order to put your knowledge to practice. And with that dedication its reward brings, one comes to write paragraph after paragraph, chapter after chapter. In the end, it forms a book and you can be proud of what you have accomplished. Was it good or bad? Does it benefit society or harm it? There are ethical landmines all over writing non-fiction work and I recommend you produce work that will benefit society.
You really need a good motivation to write a book. You don't need an editor because you are its editor and you know it is good because you 1) spellcheck, and 2) record audio after to make sure it all flows well. If it is difficult to say, you might want to change it up a bit. Doing this caught me some important mistakes in Living Neverland... being fixed tonight but it doesn't matter, no one buys my books so it isn't like there are any out there except the ones I left in Mexico... Wonder what happened to those.
To write a book one needs to get obsessively obsessed with a particular field of study. You learn and learn and learn and eventually you gain the ability to walk around that subject. As a result you begin to see things that others can't. Those are the points you write about, in between the lines. And if you are to write, write with blood. Put your heart and soul into it, that way people will pick up your passion.
How could a robot write a book? If programmed well, it could probably learn heaps, digest relevant topic, and potentially paraphrase its back's blurb, but what would be its output? I would say writing books would be a rather difficult task for a bot to do. It would be nonsensical output. It would need to learn over time and be capable of paraphrasing a great deal of material. However, I won't say that it would be impossible for a bot to write a book. Because in the end language is only one thought after the next. Let's break it down.
I write word after word. My sentence structures are what is most important though because the linked ideas are what conveys meaning. But here is the question: can my sentences act independently of their paragraph structure? If each of my ideas (sentences) are both capable of working independently and as a whole, then that content can be used in many different chatbot applications. And if my sentences can be used elsewhere and similar ideas grouped together, then I could see it feasible for a bot to write a book. And if it can write a book very quickly, then that would put a lot of authors out of work. And if that happens, the only ones who will stand are the ones who based their ideas upon solid foundations. Because robots will also one day take over our media. And we need to be prepared for mass redundancy, but the only way to do that is to make yourself irreplaceable. And how do you do that? I am showing you right now.
Any good book consists of three parts: beginning (protasis), middle (epitasis) and end (catastrophe). The ideal topic you want to convey must have been contemplated for a long time before you start writing. To start with, keep an online journal or something and try your best to write almost every day. What you write about in the beginning, will stand as the end of its series... this is to say that your foundations will result in how high you can build the structure.
As a writer, I recommend you also do video work. It will give you more exposure. It is hard in a world of self-publishing to get your book recognised. Do not worry about a potential lack in sales, for that journey is behind you, only dormant until all actions align. Eventually past toils will become future rewards, but think ye not of this; for your mind is on the current project you are on, your past ones now archived in your memory just in case you (or anybody else) wants to view them. Running a decent website is also an important aspect when self-advocating your work. You are trying to get your presence out there as much as possible, and any publicity, bad or good, is good publicity. Love your haters.
Not everybody will be capable of writing a book. Remember, you are its editor and its publisher and if the quality is not up to standard, then I recommend to keep writing journals until your writing improves, then you can move on to books. However, maybe thinking of them as only essay after essay, then maybe it will be easier for you. My writings work both in and out of context of the books I write; meaning each chapter is an essay. Focus on your strengths and use effective methods to improve upon your weaknesses.
There is more than one way to write a book. You could write many different genres and therefore require those skills in order to effectively write that type of book. Study those you admire in the genre in which you are most attracted to. Careful analysis will eventually bring that which is being studied into instinct. But the main tip I have for you is write a paragraph. See where it takes you. Follow along with another paragraph. Take a break at any time if you wish. Just remember, paragraph after paragraph. There have been times when I started a paragraph and didn't finish it and it sounded good but I didn't understand where I was going and I lost it all because of that error: deleted, for none of it made sense without further explanation which I only had at the time of writing. This is why I recommend to try your best to finish paragraphs before you get distracted with something else. If you have to get distracted with other things, just quickly type the main points you want to get across in shorthand and the layout will be there for you when you get back.
If you self publish, then you might not get sales for a long time or find yourself needing to advertise to obtain sales. I have not yet sold a single book of mine and I started publishing at the end of 2013. This industry can be very bittersweet and if you are solely writing to make an income, then I advise you to save yourself the effort and not write a book. However if you have a burning desire to share what is inside of you with others, then I encourage you to write and write often. If you are to commit yourself to a task as huge as writing a book, then you need to first ensure that your intentions are in the right place. Just remember that not getting any sales doesn't mean your book is bad. It just means that people do not know about it yet.
If you are to write a book, make it your baby. Get very used to the tools that you will be using and format everything really nicely. Ensure that you have not made any spelling or grammatical errors such as using "then" when you should have used "than". Write whenever you are inspired. Don't let your writing take over your life but instead use writing to understand all that has been presented before you in this world. Freely go between writing and other tasks and let the events of the world be your inspiration for your writing. And just as each book has a beginning, middle, and end; so does each chapter. And if we want to further break it down, each paragraph. You have a story to tell? How can you tell it and reach the right audience for it?
Being a non-fiction author is no easy task. You have a lot of work to do and you will get many haters that will discourage you from the work. But your haters mean that you are doing something right, so their ignorant feedback is your reward and not punishment. Do not let their idle hands destroy the work of your active hands. There has been so many people who have attempted to get me to remove all of my work off of the Internet. But it has never worked for good because I am smart. I saved the work so that when you censored it, I was able to re-upload it using alternative non-mainstream methods. You need to be secure in your work. You need to ensure that nothing anyone else does against you will break what you have made: including your death. Therefore, keep lots of backups both online and offline. And don't worry about what others say, good or bad. Write for yourself and no one else. You are your audience and your work's success depends on your ability to entertain yourself.
Writing a book is a journey. I never know exactly how it will turn out, although I have a good idea. Don't worry if it becomes something different than you originally planned. The evolution of your book is merely the output of the evolution of you. As you change, your perspectives will change. That is not to say what you previously focused on was wrong but merely was taken from a different perspective. Learn well how to talk to yourself through your work because that output will determine the possibilities of your future work. To talk to yourself through your work, you need to be pointing at where you are striving to arrive at. That way, after one finishes their book, they will be able to read the beginning and the end and see a clear pathway that was shot straight through the book. Smart readers will be able to pick up on this and admire your skill in performing such a shot. In this way, your writing is transparent and clearly demonstrates your intentions, from beginning to end.
How will you licence your book? Your answer to this question will determine the future possible technological integration into your work. If you have a license slapped on your book then that means that it is not freely available and that means that robots will not be able to read your book. If you want your book to be a secret undiscoverable gem, then put a license on it. If you want your book to be widely available to not only the public but also bots, then slap a CC0 - No Rights Reserved licence on it and unlock the future potential of your book and the human race. Doing this does not mean that you can't sell your book. It just means that it is also freely available on the Internet.
Finally, I want you to understand how writing a book will dramatically internally change you. It is not a year or two of your life. It is foundations about who you are as a person that are being laid. It isn't the time it takes to write a book; it is the rest of your life. Once you write and publish a book, that book will follow you around all of the days of your life. That is why you shouldn't worry about fast income. Instead worry about the quality and longevity of your book. Because that will also determine the quality and longevity, of you...
Chapter 21: Ivory Heart
August 6, 2019
Dearest girl who's name I know not,
It has been a lot of work to get where I am, dear girl. And through my journeys I learned something. If I had to choose between finding you or being at unity with God, then I choose God over finding you. Thus I realised that you could only ever be number 2 in my life, for my relationship with God is number 1. But if you also felt the same then we could unite and align our passions and become one in the same with God, for we follow the light.
You were not there when I needed you, dear girl. So I learned how to live without you. And live I am doing! Life can be so fun when you tackle it from the correct perspective. I learned many things from many types of people over the years. Being a wandering traveller for so long bumped me into many types of people every day, unfortunately finding no recluse sometimes for weeks, eventually retreating into the wilderness (not being able to sleep on the streets).
It was a hard road and yes, I have scars. But I no longer have any open wounds. I stitched myself up until it was good enough. I found enlightenment, honey, and so can you. Follow the light is cliché but true. For my words are maybe a better example. All of them, Ivory Heart and Living Neverland. And watch the videos that interests you, ideally starting from the beginning and working your way through chronologically. But I understand that doing that is a lot of work.
I made you up in my head, and because you were fictional, I got away with how young you were. But I do hope that my work inspires many young girls into philosophy. I am only waiting for one special one of those to grow up so that we can marry. Dreams, dreams... I have been alone a long time and I am patient. I almost messed up once getting engaged to a girl that was wrong for me but avoided that catastrophe. I am for you and I don't care that you are imaginary. Maybe if I continue to wish hard enough, some of my fantasy could become reality. If not, so be it. I am prepared for whatever God has prepared before me. But He has conditioned me to be alone and I don't really have the desire I once had for a partner. If she is perfect for me, great. If she isn't, then maybe I will give her a chance but I am a pretty good judge of character.
I love you forever my darling. Even though I made you up, I know that you COULD be real. And because of this slight possibility, I will never stop looking for you. You are the reason for all of my work. You are my motivation to keep moving and God knows this. God used you (whether you are real or not) as bait to truly give my entire life to Him. I suffered greatly to eventually find enlightenment. It is a hard journey but I could guide you with you by my side. Remember, you are tattooed to my heart. I can't accept any other into my heart, only U.
I want a girl who is interested in philosophy and takes it up as a major. She could springboard a lot off of me. I want a playful and attractive girl that loves the camera (or could come to love the camera). I myself am shy amongst groups of people but flourish in small groups or one to one, and of course, one to one with the camera. I want a compassionate girl who wants to dedicate her life to compassionate causes. I want a girl who loves God with all of her heart, and we all three can share the love together. I don't want a religious girl. I want a spiritual girl who learns from all monotheistic religions. Does such a girl exist? I imagine you. You exist, dear Ivory, because I made you exist not only printed on my chest but also captured all throughout my films and books.
How can I go about finding you, dear girl? I shout out in every way I can and mostly receive insults as a response. I am preparing the material that 1) you will be attracted to and 2) you need at this point in your life. I was sent here on a mission to train you in philosophy and I am going to do that one way or another. It results training the entire world in philosophy. Wouldn't that be something? If people valued wisdom over greed... What a world we could build if we build equal autonomous relationships that were super close and working towards the same or similar goal? How high could two bodies, minds, and spirits reach if they were to only unite together in God? This is the true meaning of the Trinity.
If I do not manage to do this in my lifetime, then I encourage another to try. Because if you get two philosophical minds together who think similarly but still diverse enough to challenge each other's theories, then you have a friend forever. If they are a beautiful female, will you be mine? Why is it so hard to find women who are interested in philosophy? To be honest, the only reason I even covered mythology is because I thought you would enjoy it. I thought the fantasy aspect of life would catch your spirit. I caught it all for you on camera my dear.
It is all there for you my dear. Three books as of today and many courses. The website is made in a chronological fashion, so what is at the top is the earliest and what is at the bottom is the latest. I put it like that because you can really see my foundations grow viewing in that order. There are no ads and ebook and audio versions of the three books, Ivory Heart, Living Neverland, and of course, this one, The Great Awakening. I know it is a lot to study but the audio versions work with a locked phone, so you can listen while you walk. And if you get obsessed, you could easily finish listening to a book in a day. So it isn't really confiscating too much of your time. I made everything really cosy and very user friendly. Try not to be scared how much content you find there is once you get digging...
I would never replace a real girl for an artificial one. I think it reprehensible and can be compared to man sleeping with beasts. My Ivory is a real girl who exists somewhere out there. Abracadabra! Haha, resorting to fake magic. But there is wisdom in its meaning. "It will be created with my words" the translation goes. By me typing it, I am actualising it into existence. And that will have a chain reaction as, over time, many people read or listen to it.
My heart reaches out to you, dear youth. Because I know how creepy your school systems are, especially in the USA. I feel sorry for you and I know you feel like an inmate. I also feel sorry for the teachers being underpaid and overworked. But our youth are the ones being affected, by this system that teaches very little to do with real life skills that they will actually need after they graduate. It doesn't matter what type of education system they implement, the same rules apply. It is teaching you to be a slave to the system that has been created, attempting to craft you into a particular type of person called a worker.
But you are different dear girl, for I give you the keys to the world - nesmith.net - and now you literally have the pixie dust to fly. I know flying can be scary but that is your destiny, my love. I look forward to what your destiny is after we find each other but that is a journey we will take together. I will always be there for you. I will be a good boyfriend and husband. I will treat you like the queen that you will one day become, dear princess. I don't know why most pretty girls go for the stupid outgoing guys who have a peanut for a brain. I want with all my heart to produce good offspring. And that requires a good woman. Marco!
I am sorry that I can't be there to hold your hand right now. But look at what you have before you and hold my hand.
With everlasting love,
Wendell Charles NeSmith
I pray to God to find you one day.